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A film is never really good unless the camera is an eye in the head of a poet.

[ᴇʟᴀɪ @Alupihan_]

"Sining sa moseo na tanging Dyos lamang ang nagpinta, nakita kita na parang anghel"

Happy first anniversary Darlina ko!!
@Bolagaaaa

[𐙚 @hidingberry]

naiintindihan ko naman, iiyakan ko lang muna

[ᴇʟᴀɪ @Alupihan_]

sobrang sakit naaaaaa

[ᴇʟᴀɪ @Alupihan_]

di ko alam pano ako humantong sa self harm, pero here we go ig

[ᴇʟᴀɪ @Alupihan_]

only to go back to zero at magstress eating bwhahaah

[ᴇʟᴀɪ @Alupihan_]

narealize q na sobrang fucked up na ng tingin q sa sarili ko kapag sinusuka q na lahat ng kinakain ko kasi sobrang takot ako sa idea na mas lalo akong tataba

[ᴇʟᴀɪ @Alupihan_]

pati panggagaslight sakin na nagtitipid ako pero in reality dinedeprive ko lang yung sarili ko sa pagkain just to feel some kind of relief

[ᴇʟᴀɪ @Alupihan_]

too much self doubt for one day

[ᴇʟᴀɪ @Alupihan_]

dagdag pa yung lowkey panlalait sakin, nagiging defense mechanism ko na tuloy yung panlalait sa sarili ko

[ᴇʟᴀɪ @Alupihan_]

hirap padin aq tanggapin itsura q now, I can't bring myself to open it to anybody pero sobrang nagausuffer ako iaccept kung ano itsura q at ng katawan q :////

[ᴇʟᴀɪ @Alupihan_]

I'm still that fucked up person after all

[ᴇʟᴀɪ @Alupihan_]

pag nawala ka, pano na ko

[ᴇʟᴀɪ @Alupihan_]

back to zero again hahahaha

[ᴇʟᴀɪ @Alupihan_]

now lang naman e

[ᴇʟᴀɪ @Alupihan_]

for the first time in a long while, I finally feels like I'm getting better. sobrang aappreciate ko lahat ng mga taong nagstay sakin.
kay dar, katha, dash 5 peeps, at sa iba, I may not tell all of these to you in person pero appreciated ko kayong lahat. (⁠ ⁠˘⁠ ⁠³⁠˘⁠)⁠♥

[ᴇʟᴀɪ @Alupihan_]

I'm starting to enjoy college, tamang desisyon talaga pagresign ko sa jollibee

[ᴇʟᴀɪ @Alupihan_]

I'm messier than ever

[ᴇʟᴀɪ @Alupihan_]

akala ko, when I turn college, maoovercome ko yung low self esteem ko, turns out, mas lalo lang lumala, lalo ko lang pinapabayaan sarili ko, nagkabisyo na ko para lang marelieve yung identity crisis ko. wala kong naiipon, my parents thinks I'm doing drugs.

[ᴇʟᴀɪ @Alupihan_]

araw araw nalang

[ᴇʟᴀɪ @Alupihan_]

up until now, wherever I go, whoever people I meet, lahat sila may comment sa itsura ko. oo na pangit na ko pls don't remind me : ))))

[ᴇʟᴀɪ @Alupihan_]

Gago k roel