࿔ Alva

⋆.ೃ࿔*:･ 9teen • he/him • neurodivergent • 🇲🇽/🇺🇸

sw: 70kg • cw: 46kg

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@latte_twirl0 @_starsstrv_ Even low bmis eat and “seemingly” eat a lot. This is because you cant heavily restrict forever. You will have days that you do eat that much. Nobody is denying she has an ed, but speculating based on speculation is weird.

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@pennylaneisd3ad I always cook or bake at night 😭🙏

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I genuinely feel like I’m in a toxic relationship with food where I’m the primary abuser.

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Didnt bother calculating bc I won’t like it. Rice, egg, cheese, lettuce, mild sauce lol

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@Lylylimia “So brave” please get out of my earrrr 😭🙏

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@abxpanic @miserymachine00 @juiceorexia What

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@00_yyen I think it's people not realizing that you can be privileged and still struggle from said privilege.

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@Delicatelylu @l0st__fl0wer I think feeling conflicted about it isn't wrong as there is no "right answer" here that will get someone a 100% guaranteed recovery path laid out.

Bad reactions will happen. its unfortunate and we cant say it wont happen here. We should just try to help where we can!

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@APitt2024 @l0st__fl0wer I'm engaging in a conversation about something i struggle with daily and giving my opinion about such. Also I do not hold a place in society to mansplain nor did I have condescending intentions, I'm sorry if it came across that way.

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I know it won’t stop either because I’m not actively in recovery nor do I want it. I just wish I did want it. I wish I wanted it as bad as I want to die.

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I know I do it for control and it’s not logical but I hate that I can’t seem to stop 100%. I know it’s because I haven’t pushed myself to recover ever, but I wish it would magically go away.

Like why do I have this self pitying disorder that I allow to control me?

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I know I do it for control and it’s not logical but I hate that I can’t seem to stop 100%. I know it’s because I haven’t pushed myself to recover ever, but I wish it would magically go away.

Like why do I have this self pitying disorder that I allow to control me?

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@miserymachine00 @juiceorexia As someone who lives with their ex partner it can be hard so Id recommend getting yourself on you feet first. Other people are unpredictable so I totally understand your position. One accidentally bad break up can lead to someone reacting too emotionally in the moment.

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@miserymachine00 I just hate that men’s mental health month is used against pride month celebrators. Like I think they can coexist without it being used as a tool to put down one. It makes me kind of sad because the people who do that never care about men’s mental health and will bully a gay guy.

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@munchingkittyy Im currently living with a messy roomate too and it feels like I’m shaming them each time I mention things but nothing improves. It’s frustrating because I end up doing it because I can’t live like that long yk? Have you spoken to your roomate about this in the past?

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@fatbeyondrepair I say i think only because there are times where someone says something like “I used to be 90lbs” in person to me while I was speaking to someone else who knows I have an ed. It makes me feel like I have to show them that I can do it too. Not logical ofc.

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@fatbeyondrepair Eds breed competition in the spaces but it isnt a written rule we all are competitive for sure. With any mental illness base spaces youll often see “who is the most sick” conversations happen all the time. Same with edtwt. I’m personally not competitive or so I think.

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Eds aren’t logical and do not appear as logical. They are not meant to be understood as logical thoughts but rather as illogical, as the person is mentally illl.

Picking to restrict over purging is harm reduction, but many have the intent to harm themselves.

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@rozzieexx @jirlywurly @lsdbunnie Omg same pfp twinnn