If you aren't still waiting for your time of death, then you haven't learned a thing about life, you are still a child. I can promise you that the world is not as positive of a place as you imagined. This isn't despair; this is just seeing beauty and accepting the ultimate truth.
The black sheep warned the female white sheep,
"He's a wolf in sheep's disguise, he's faking his whole personality just to eat you, it's obvious!"
She replied, "Shut up, you're just jealous of him"
In the end, The female sheep got eaten and all the black sheep were blamed.
The curse of a thinker is that he never stays the same, He sheds his skin and becomes someone else after every hit or every 6 days. Even at death, He burns his diaries. The world then either worships him like Kafka or hates him like Nietzsche.
You can have a thousand similarities with someone,
But there will always be many unseen immense differences,
which if not reconciled
you'll lose the person.
Tragedy makes painters become politicians. Tragedy makes politicians become gardeners. Tragedy makes gardeners become politicians. Each time
the brain finds peace elsewhere.
All possible naturalistic & non-theistic explanations of our universe's origin eventually ultimately leads back to these 3 main contradictory models or Trilemma:
1. Eternal Process
2. Self Cause
3. Eternal Cause (will-less)
The universe didn't originate from matter (excited energetic quantum fields), space (dynamic geometry that responds to energy, still incompletely understood and not nothingness) or time (which is relational to matter & space) either. They're also features of nature or reality.
There is no empirical scientific evidence that "existent nature patterns" which are described as quantum laws is the cause/origin of nature or reality, rather they're the features of nature itself. Therefore, uncertainty principle & quantum fluctuations didn't create the universe
Modern cosmology and theoretical physics can sometimes deceive us with fancy terms & wordplay.
It's not a universe originating from "nothing", it's actually quantum fields (matter).
It's not "particles popping into existence", it's actually matter transforming into particles.