I’ve realized recently that a lot of my exhaustion wasn’t physical at all.
I’ve been healthier lately, spending my days in the Divine Bliss healing garden, eating farm to table, working physically… and yet I still kept feeling more tired than I should.
I spend most of my days tending to soil, the plants, the animals that surround the space. It has been the most positively therapeutic experience. I can feel nature healing me, strengthening me from the inside out.
I do notice that while my strength has increased, there are others here who have easily eight times the endurance and energy that I do, and they’re more than a decade older than me.
So I’ve wondered, why do I tire so easily? How can I get more energy?
As always with Guruji (Divine Bliss International), when I have a question circling my mind, most times I don’t even need to voice it, She picks it up and gives me the answer without any prompt.
She told me that there are a few people in my life that I am still battling with in my head. I don’t even interact with them physically anymore. We don’t talk. And yet thoughts of them float in and out of my mind from time to time. Unfinished business, it feels like. Or we ended on bad terms. People I felt betrayed by. Many of my old staff that I felt had abandoned me in times of need.
Guruji pointed out to me that the force it takes to stay angry at them, to keep up a shield to protect myself, is actually draining my energy.
She sees some of their faces circling through my aura all the time.
I’m sure many have felt this… where you haven’t talked to someone in years, but the way things ended still takes a toll on you and you think about it often.
That afterthought. That feeling that comes back the rare moment you stop the business of life long enough to sit with yourself.
I’m amazed how since Guruji told me this, I’ve made a conscious effort to conclude those battles in my head. The arguments I keep replaying in my mind, I’ve been choosing in those moments instead to send them love, and now even reverence for all the learnings I received from them.
And I will tell you, I feel a marked difference. I’ve been lighter. I also made some physical adjustments to help detach.
No doctor would ever tell you, “You’re tired because your mind is still fighting the people from your past. Let it go and you’ll have more energy.” Haha.
I’ve never heard that prescription per se. I’m sure the concept is obvious to many.
But there is a difference between knowing it, and doing it.
That’s what I love about my Guru. She sees parts of me where I have blind spots. She gives me guidance, and it’s my responsibility to take action and rectify. And when I do, and follow the experiential learning at play, I reap the benefits.
Just one small instance of a breakthrough from being around my spiritual guide. These happen on a regular basis. It can be intense at times to hear the truth, and my ego wants to fight to protect itself. But when I can lean back into my logical mind, I find that truth really does set me free.
So grateful to have my Guru in my life. So lucky to have two wonderful mothers. My physical mother, who I’m close as thieves with… and my spiritual mother, who helps guide me on the path to fulfilling my true purpose and destiny.
When I talk to people these days, very often they say, “I deeply respect what you’re doing. I don’t understand it at all. But I respect you for it.”
I’m going to do a better job articulating the wonder, and the utterly fantastical gift, it is to study under my Guru, and what it means to have a true, wise, selfless force in your life.
“To forget how to dig the earth and to tend the soil is to forget ourselves.” — Mahatma Gandhi
I am amazed how we spend our whole lives seeking, chasing, fighting for achievements that end up fleeting… one accomplishment leading to the next, always feeling the cravings that need to be fed.
But when I let it all go and simply stand before a bed of soil, wrap my hands around the earth, let my feet sink in… my head becomes calm enough to hear the whispers of the plants.
My heart has never felt more excitement to flourish, more compassion to nurture my crops, or more determination to find strength in what was once a weak body, now tending to my bounty.
The Earth is a far greater giver than any inspiring quote on the internet. No amount of doom scrolling can compare to the smell of jasmine in the wind as it brushes my face, or the butterflies that bring me joy as they flutter by, reminding me to smile.
All is well in the world when I spend time at Divine Bliss Healing Sanctuary.
What an abundance I have found.
What beauty now lives within my heart.
When nature calls, I answer.
And love becomes my true goal and purpose.
@LuizCent@nickgraynews Really?!? What a great idea! Did they use them? I’m in Clearwater! They follow me around all day and just stare. Just a bit longer than my arm away. It is wild! Chatgbt keeps telling me there’s no hand taming them because they’re wild, but I think I can do it 😆
If AI is a machine, who is in control of the machine?
I understand why people would want a chip to feel better, especially when so many are unhappy or struggling. But that isn’t enlightenment. It’s synthetic—like a drug or alcohol—numbing the pain while giving away your autonomy.
Giving away your free will isn’t freedom. It’s just a more advanced way to escape what you haven’t faced yet.
True enlightenment is conquering those emotions, facing them head on, and mastering the ability to stay calm amidst the storm. That doesn’t happen overnight. That’s dharma.
I’d rather choose a path where my joy and freedom come from my own effort, even if it’s harder, because at least it’s real.
My two cents 😅
How often do you have those moments where you used AI and created something in under an hour that used to take a month of work?
Just happened to me and I’m still in shock. Holy cow.
Makes me think…
We MUST teach the younger generations how to use their brain so it isn’t outsourced by technology 😳
The combination of human plus AI is amazingly powerful.
The replacement of AI for human is the end of human intellect as we know it.
@reallyoptimized That sounds awful to me.
You’ll find me off the grid on our 1,000 acres. Using my entire brain by itself. That’s been my guru‘s mission all these years -teaching people how to use a larger percentage of their brain to prevent disease and increase their potential.
@nickgraynews She keeps staring at me! For looooong periods of time. I think she wants to come closer. Although you need special gear to be able to hold her on your arm... and I hear they're not cuddly... But, there's a future here I can feel it 😆
@skylarromines@itinerantfog Skylar when are you going to have your own tv show? All these great comments are just perfectly primed for you to have one of those shows where people call in to get advice.
Like Dave Ramsey does with finances. I think you’d be a hit.
Studying under my Guru is about constantly being stretched, challenged, and taught in ways I never experienced before.
It is very hands-on. Building, gardening, figuring things out with what’s around us. Guruji always seems to have the most creative solutions, and somehow everything we need shows up at the right time.
This was one of those moments that really stayed with me.
Just two days ago we had a Divine Bliss garden day, cutting down two story high bamboo shoots to rebuild our lanai, which had been torn apart during the last hurricanes.
Guruji came up with the idea in meditation to use bamboo as an archway and let our passion fruit vine grow over it.
I watched another monk, Brandon, climbing all over the lanai effortlessly. No hands, balancing on beams, completely at ease.
It stuck with me.
Guruji is always talking about courage and challenging me to overcome my fears, and I could feel that lesson working on me.
So when the bamboo got stuck about 14 ft up, something in me wanted to try climbing it.
Everyone told me I couldn’t.
But I felt very determined. I was going to do it anyway.
As I started, I realized bamboo has small shoots all the way up, surprisingly sturdy, like little rock climbing holds.
Slowly, I made my way up.
Brandon joined me and we worked piece by piece to get everything down.
Until one final piece was caught high in a massive oak tree, and my mind went straight to… there’s no way.
So I called out to Guruji and asked Her if it was possible.
She told me She had already been communicating with the trees, telling them they were going somewhere meaningful for the healing center.
That was enough. Something shifted instantly.
We got creative, and eventually… it came down.
What’s wild is how effortless it felt while I was up there. Until I had to come down 😅
Guruji said to me, very calmly, go very slowly. And the moment fear crept in, my foot slipped and I slid down the bamboo, one of those same shoots scratching down my entire back.
How interesting that when I was fully trusting, everything felt easy.
The second fear entered, results were instantaneous.
It also hit me how often Guruji gives guidance I don’t fully understand in the moment, but She already sees what’s coming.
Still learning but so grateful to have such a brilliant guiding force in my life 🙏