Another Addict

Me, an intellectual (addict): Reflecting on the absurdity and grace of my recovery. Definitely not an expert at life. 😂 Sober af 02/12/18 #xa #AA

[Another Addict @An0therAddict]

✨16 months clean and 100% sober.

Still have nightmares
Still broken
Still baffled by -situations- 😝

Surprised that I can ask for help.

Amazed that I can show up.

Incredible to love and be loved despite imperfections. 🙏🏼✨

A new life just starting to take shape.
#blessed

[Another Addict @An0therAddict]

Weekly or so I dream of drinking, sometimes accidentally, and hiding it and sometimes then deciding I’ve messed it all up anyway so I should just go for it. Then I wake up and feel small and broken.

[Dave & Chris @Dopeypodcast]

Almost 4 years clean and sober, around 8 years off of heroin. I honestly don't want to get high and last night I still dreamt of having heroin in my pocket desperate for a moment to shoot it. Do you guys still have using dreams?

[Another Addict @An0therAddict]

@SoberLife4 Cooool. I remember your first tweets. 🙏🏼🙌🏼

[Another Addict @An0therAddict]

@mthafckinest 🙌🏼 props for being willing to shuffle even in an aggravated fashion it’s still good for you. 😂

[Another Addict @An0therAddict]

Sitting here trying to decide if I should take 3 classes in addition to my full time job in the fall or 2.

This is only possible to consider because I’m sober.

I can reliably show up for a full time job, school, meetings and service.

What is this miracle?!
#recovery 🙏🏼✨

[Another Addict @An0therAddict]

@daveglass1 Seems like a good place to be.

[Another Addict @An0therAddict]

“Invisible threads are the strongest ties.” -Nietzsche

We forget this so easily in the dazzle of the ongoing hustle to obtain material wealth and objects that give us status.

In truth, we’re busted if we’re without someone to share our tiny moments with.
#mondaythoughts

[Another Addict @An0therAddict]

@oldasshooligan Thanks I think it’s pretty cool

[Another Addict @An0therAddict]

✨16 months clean and 100% sober.

Still have nightmares
Still broken
Still baffled by -situations- 😝

Surprised that I can ask for help.

Amazed that I can show up.

Incredible to love and be loved despite imperfections. 🙏🏼✨

A new life just starting to take shape.
#blessed

[Another Addict @An0therAddict]

I hope that I can one day present myself honestly and humbly without the show and the veils.

I hope that somehow people choose to love me as I am.

It feels scary.

But every time I talk about it, it loses power and I open myself up to receive love. And I didn’t die. 🙏🏼

[Another Addict @An0therAddict]

Last night I led a meeting and talked about why I don’t like dealing with groups.

I want to figure out what every one wants and expects from me and give them that thing. It’s how I win their friendship and love.

Pretty sure that behavior has got me into a world of trouble.

[Another Addict @An0therAddict]

@sobermb It would be excellent if I could throw off the yoke of people pleasing and pursue my own goals without regard. For me, this is about progress not perfection. Odaat. I don’t have pursue learning the opinion of me held by others. It’s distracting and ultimately means little. 🙏🏼

[Another Addict @An0therAddict]

@daveglass1 Sobriety definitely forces a perspective shift. I’ve had moments of clarity that seemed transcendent but most have cultivated acceptance and grace. I’m much better at dealing with hard things but I don’t notice that very often.

[Another Addict @An0therAddict]

I’m the last to realize how much and to what degree I’ve changed.

I get caught up in the challenge of the moment.

I never had a white light sparkling sudden transformation.

I do tiny things differently everyday and over time I’ve grown into a new version of myself. #ODAAT

[Another Addict @An0therAddict]

@mthafckinest 👏🏼

[Another Addict @An0therAddict]

@sobermb Don’t get me wrong. I was untoward mostly and uncouth the other hours of the day. I just felt like it was between me and whomever I was cavorting with.
I led a life of intrigue such that no one knew each other and no one really knew me. 😂😂😂
In other words...crazy.

[Another Addict @An0therAddict]

I changed my kitten avatar to a real photo of a real woman, that happens to be me. I don’t need to hide anymore. I’m not ashamed because I’m pretty sure my story could help someone else. #xa #aa

[Another Addict @An0therAddict]

@mthafckinest Well we haven’t interacted in a while so maybe you’ve cultivated a penchant for oceanic danger??

You were the very first person I interacted with here when I had like 20 days. So...you’re important to me in a weird internet kind of way. 🌈

[Another Addict @An0therAddict]

@mthafckinest Dolphins with switch blades?! Ya better believe some friends are around to back you up. 💁🏻‍♀️

[Another Addict @An0therAddict]

@mthafckinest 🌊🏄🏻‍♀️
Just surfing the waves of life! Probably won’t kill me. Might be incredible. Gotta say yes and do the scary thing and see what kind self I can be. I don’t know. It’s been hot. Maybe I’m losing my mind. Losing my steel to say -no- 👏🏼