~ Not this.
Never this.
No one should ever have to go through this, closing my eyes as bend over softly kissing her cold cheek as I whisper.
“I love you, Mammy.”
I silently stand there for as long as I’m able, telling her everything I never could while she was alive.
~ unfortunately killed her.
Gingerly reaching out for her hand, I’m overwhelmed by all the things I want to say to her, to hear her tell me off, to complain as she buttons up my coat. To have all those moments I took for granted back again, to just have her. ~