My first tour was so fucking terrifying to me and maybe because I was pretty hard on myself, weird little paradox every night of feelings the adrenaline and the love of the crowd all the while scolding myself in my head. I had some incredible shows that tour and proved a lot to myself but still it was a tough one mentally
And now here we our about to start the third tour. I’ve got a really really good feeling about this. That’s not some bullshit marketing ploy to make you come to the show, I genuinely haven’t ever felt this assured about the show we’re about to put on. If you’re reading this and you’re a fan, don’t underestimate your importance in how I feel professionally. Now if I’m real with myself I’m sure there will be a few moments where I get in my own head but after all these years I feel so protected by you all in those spaces. I literally can’t fucking wait for these shows.
Will it be a performance worthy of a vocal Olympian? No
Will it be the best selling show of the year? No
Will it be a show with numerous lyric sheets on stage like we’re in the stone age before autocue? Maybe
What it will be though is a moment for all of us to celebrate how far we’ve all come. Diary entries over. Just wanted to update you on what was going on in my head.
Right listen, heart to heart, I want to level with you all. I know I haven’t been as present online as I have been in the past. Been taking a bit of time for myself but I can’t express the incredible gratitude I have for all of you!