☆Angie☆

edtwt | "Recovered" | Relapsing

[☆Angie☆ @Angelisfloating]

also i used to be able to fast for 24+ hours feeling relatively fine and now within 8 hours of not eating im 100% out of commission

[☆Angie☆ @Angelisfloating]

sometimes i consider the fact that i used to be 120 pounds and it feels so distant from me that im not even really sure i believe it anymore

[☆Angie☆ @Angelisfloating]

i wish i could just be happy with the way i look now. i wish i could stop, i wish i wasnt so ill, i wish i didnt have it put in my head as a kid that eating is wrong and that theres only one right way for a body to look

[☆Angie☆ @Angelisfloating]

sometimes i consider the fact that i used to be 120 pounds and it feels so distant from me that im not even really sure i believe it anymore

[☆Angie☆ @Angelisfloating]

i have eaten like one full meal in the last 3 days cause ive been so severely anxious that ive been too nauseous to eat, i did lowkey think i was dying, but great weight loss strat LMAO

[☆Angie☆ @Angelisfloating]

twitter just gave me a notification to remind me ive been on edtwt formally for 3 years, wow thanks man

[☆Angie☆ @Angelisfloating]

@remorexic i have tiny metal utensils from when i was a kid that i still lowkey use to eat desserts and stuff. the thought is basically smaller utensils = smaller bites = small desserts last longer and feel bigger, making them more filling or more satisfying mentally

[☆Angie☆ @Angelisfloating]

i havent gone swimming in years bc im also lowkey a germaphobe and i dont trust public pools to be clean 🫩

[☆Angie☆ @Angelisfloating]

i wish i had a pool cause lowk i wld be swimming 24/7 and burning so many cals 🫠

[☆Angie☆ @Angelisfloating]

i wish i had a pool cause lowk i wld be swimming 24/7 and burning so many cals 🫠

[☆Angie☆ @Angelisfloating]

@udontnaiomi besides like 90% of edtwt is using something (caffeine usually) to suppress appetite, and its basically the same thing, so who cares?

[☆Angie☆ @Angelisfloating]

the day the stomach fat is gone is the day i'll be happy cause why is my body type so wack 😭😭

[☆Angie☆ @Angelisfloating]

@suicidesankari2 ehh it depends, in my experience if youre already in therapy they will pressure you to recover, and tell you to go to residential and eventually start refusing to meet with you until you do, or if youre under 18 they'll make your parents send you (by lowkey threatening them)

[☆Angie☆ @Angelisfloating]

chia seeds, to me, are like dry oats, in that you have to have them with excessive amounts of water or you will explode (according to my summer camp counsellors as a kid)

[☆Angie☆ @Angelisfloating]

been at it like an hour, my foot hurts (no shoes on cause im inside) and my knee hurts lowkey, but whatever im chill

[☆Angie☆ @Angelisfloating]

getting back into pacing around my room cause if im gonna doom scroll i might as well be skinny (also my legs keep hurting from sitting all the time 🫠)

[☆Angie☆ @Angelisfloating]

getting back into pacing around my room cause if im gonna doom scroll i might as well be skinny (also my legs keep hurting from sitting all the time 🫠)

[☆Angie☆ @Angelisfloating]

so so triggering to me that the only acceptable way to be fat is to have big boobs. i dont. my fat distribution sucks. so my only options are obviously a boob job, skinny, or both.

[☆Angie☆ @Angelisfloating]

no caffeine for the last like 2 days so now i'm having headaches and feeling hunger again 🫩🫩 need to beg for more energy drinks or actually take my adderall now smh

[☆Angie☆ @Angelisfloating]

hands keep turning purple in the shower #whatdatmean

[☆Angie☆ @Angelisfloating]

@StrawberiRexi @trailcammed the "anorexia voices" is so real bc i was put in forced residential and had my panic attacks brushed off as "just the ED talking" as well, they didnt care at all to actually help me or anything

[☆Angie☆ @Angelisfloating]

i actually dont think i'd hate my body as much if i didnt have a flat chest. it just doesnt look proportionate. all this fat and nothing to show for it..

[☆Angie☆ @Angelisfloating]

anybody else feel like their body is ESPECIALLY disgusting and weird. like yea every body is different whatever, but MINE is wrong. like why does it look like that? ive never seen ANYBODY with a build like mine. thats how weird it is.