I used to think that because a lot of my interests were male dominated that women would find me weird so most of my friends in high school were just a bunch of male centered women,
Way worse. Since we're both jewish, I keep seeing him whenever I go to one of the meetings at the jewish organizations at our college, and it will probably be like this for the next two years of my life unless one of us transfers.
I used to literally wish someone would sit with me so I wouldn't have to sit alone. College was better. I made some really good friends, but after college everyone got busy. Now we barely talk and sometimes go months without meeting.
But for the last 5 days, i completely lost motivation for everything. I dont know what happened or why it happened. I usually went to failure in my exercises. Now i cant feel the will to do so. I get bored while reading, and just decide to scroll on my phone.