Ardnolua

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[Ardnolua @ArdNolua]

None of this is personal, it's just my space to vent, so don't take it too seriously. Most of the time, these are just passing feelings and thoughts.

[Ardnolua @ArdNolua]

The other day I came home late and saw a cockroach scurrying in the darkness. I thought it must have just finished work and wanted to get home quickly.
I'm almost certain that's how Kafka conceived of The Metamorphosis.

[Ardnolua @ArdNolua]

She'll leave
and so will we
that's it
please get over it, let her go

[Ardnolua @ArdNolua]

I don't know, I just don't know

[Ardnolua @ArdNolua]

What do six years of hatred, regret, remorse, stress, and uncertainty look like?

[Ardnolua @ArdNolua]

I thought I would be free, and technically I am, but now what?

[Ardnolua @ArdNolua]

Living doesn't have to hurt like this, I don't want to feel like this anymore

[Ardnolua @ArdNolua]

It's not exactly what I expected of myself, you know? I was looking for a different life, and it's painful. But I think I'm tired and I just want to do something right.

[Ardnolua @ArdNolua]

I'm going to try to find a way to fit into this, and if we still have time, we'll try to be who we always knew we wanted to be.

[Ardnolua @ArdNolua]

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[Ardnolua @ArdNolua]

I hate you for not being here tonight. I love being with Dha, but I miss you, you idiot. I miss you so much.

[Ardnolua @ArdNolua]

Dear Ardonl: I'm not drunk enough to write to you, but I'm still a little tipsy. I love you, and I appreciate every little lie you tell yourself daily to stay alive. Someday we'll be happy. With love, Alo

[Ardnolua @ArdNolua]

I think life is sometimes a mess, but getting drunk and talking to a friend can always help.

[Ardnolua @ArdNolua]

I used to be little miss perfect, but the lesbian life made me little miss pervert

[Ardnolua @ArdNolua]

God, how I miss feeling a real piano

[Ardnolua @ArdNolua]

Update: Wattpad got nerfed.
There aren't any writers like there used to be. This just proves you can go back to where you were happy, but nothing guarantees things will be as good as before.

[Ardnolua @ArdNolua]

To hell with it, I'm going back to where I was happy.
I installed Wattpad.

[Ardnolua @ArdNolua]

He shouldn't have died; it makes me sad to think about it. If I could, I'd switch places with him. I didn't know you before, Oliver, but I like your music. I wish I could tell you that and how wonderful your life seemed to me.

[Ardnolua @ArdNolua]

I want to talk about Oliver Tree.
I don't think I had any idea who he was until he died. Dude, he studied at CalArts. He had a great career. And he died.

[Ardnolua @ArdNolua]

God, I don't know why I feel this way; when I listen to his music I can't help but get sad and think about it over and over again. It should have been me, dude. He had a great life, he was living the dream, he studied at CalArts... It should have been me, dude.