Probably too busy with health shit to be online | Co-Host of @iHeartArson with @SavvyAvie_ | Photography/Music Nerd who doesn't post often | PFP by @Asunyaannn
"Asylum" and "Me and My monster" are the only 2 songs I've ever not been able to listen to without crying almost instantly, I always have loved music but Ren's music just speaks to me on a level I don't even understand honestly I fucking love his music and I think everyone should
I don't have anything much to say since I don't want to give false hope that I'm gonna be active, I still don't want to be active til I get my shit together but I wanted to post an album from Ren cause all his music speaks to my soul https://t.co/eOUx5EMSsk
@ArsonIsMyHobby my fault for not sending any emails on it, but j just use the email literally for this twitter account and nothing else so i didn't think much about it
o btw follow @ArsonIsMyHobby cause currently if this account gets locked I have 0 way of recovering it, the phone number attached was cancelled by my sister months ago and for some reason i have fucking Schrodinger's email cause my email both exist and doesn't exist somehow
note to self: do not try and respond to like a year and a half of unread messages in one night then proceed to jump between about 15 conversations, my brain already gets overwhelmed easy and that made me so nauseous i had to sleep through an entire day
literally only email that this happened to and i have like 15 @null.net emails but of course the one attached to my account with a dead number is the one that just says "nah imma delete myself"
o btw follow @ArsonIsMyHobby cause currently if this account gets locked I have 0 way of recovering it, the phone number attached was cancelled by my sister months ago and for some reason i have fucking Schrodinger's email cause my email both exist and doesn't exist somehow
speaking of which, may avoid showing my face for awhile, lets just say long knotted up hair + scalp eczema = pain so bad i kept just screaming randomly, so i cut it all off like last year and its still kinda shit looking
also kinda forcing myself to not focus on my health as much because ive been very much making it worse when i do because when i get worried i scratch my head, which fucks with my scalp eczema which causes my head to just feel like a swollen ball of static
hey just wanted to update yall slightly, im alive, ive been getting a bit better health wise, honestly mostly held back by still not having glasses and also lots of head pain, probably from years of head trauma that ive never had checked out by a doctor or anything
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@SpitefulProds her strokes caused her to forget everything and doctors couldn't even help really after how many heart attacks, seizures, strokes, etc. that she had, so she literally had to stop her brain bleeding herself and learn how to walk again, so shes been helping me fix my brain issues
btw for anyone I message, sorry my grammar and general typing is so much worse. not socializing much for months ruined my speech and vocabulary honestly
@spooliVEVO thank u! also yeah if all goes well for once and my brain doesn't just give out for a few months again like it did the last couple times then i would love to finally actually talk more
(probably wont respond to almost anything until tonight cause 1. it's 90 degrees here rn and im barely functioning because of it 2. i have lots of messages to try and respond to over multiple accounts and I'm very slow at typing recently, this thread took like 40 minutes no joke)
and im trying to force myself to get back to talking to people cause i haven't talked to basically anyone other then my mom, her partner, and some of their friends for over a year at this point and the lack of socializing feels like it's making me insane so ye time to be social