I'M SORRY. I NEED TO BE HONEST WITH YOU.
Hello everyone.
First of all, I'm sorry.
I said I would document these 7 days.
Day 6 came.
Then Day 7.
And now both days are already gone.
The truth is, everything got out of control again.
I kept thinking I could somehow catch up, solve everything, and come back with a good update.
Instead, the pressure kept growing.
And nowโฆ
I've run out of time.
The person I owe money to has decided to give me a few more days.
I'm grateful for that chance.
But at the same time, something happened that made the situation even harder.
The situation was apparently communicated to the phone store where I had previously obtained my phone.
Since then, I've been dealing with even more calls, additional pressure, and penalties that are still hanging over me.
So instead of one problem getting smallerโฆ
it feels like one problem has turned into several.
And honestly, I'm exhausted.
My mental state has been getting worse.
The constant calls.
The money I owe.
The deadlines.
The accident.
My health.
My studies.
Work.
The pressure of not knowing what happens next.
Sometimes my heart starts racing just from thinking about everything I have to solve.
I know I haven't handled these last few days perfectly.
I disappeared.
I missed the updates I promised.
And I'm sorry to everyone who was following this.
But I'm not going to disappear again just because I failed to keep the schedule.
I owe you the truth more than I owe you a perfect story.
I still have debts to deal with.
I still have penalties hanging over me.
I still need to recover.
And yes, I still need to get my laptop back because I had to pawn it to deal with the immediate crisis.
My original 7-day deadline is over.
But I have been given a few more days.
This is the second chance I didn't know I would get.
I don't want to waste it.
If you've been following me since Day 1, thank you for staying this long.
If you can donate, even $1, $5, or $10, it can help me reduce this pressure.
If you can't donate, please repost this.
At this point, reaching the right person may matter more than anything.
I'm not asking you to fix my entire life.
I'm trying to get through one crisis so I can finally return to what I was trying to build in the first place.
Game development.
Creating.
Learning.
Building projects.
And eventually building a team.
I wanted this 7-day story to end with:
โI made it.โ
Instead, it ended with:
โI need a few more days.โ
But maybe that's okay.
Because sometimes the deadline passes before the fight is over.
I still have a chance.
And this time, I don't want to waste it.
Thank you for reading.
I'm still here.
And I'm going to keep going.
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DAY 4 + DAY 5/7 โ I'm sorry I went quiet.
I owe you an apology.
I said I would update you every day.
I didn't.
And I don't want to make excuses.
The last few days became much harder than I expected.
The accident, the pain, the debt, work, my studies, and the constant pressure have started affecting me mentally in a way I can't ignore anymore.
My anxiety has been getting worse.
There are moments when my heart starts racing and my thoughts simply won't stop.
I keep thinking about the money I owe.
The deadlines.
My health.
My future.
And what happens if I can't solve everything in time.
Honestly, it's scary.
And then something happened that I really didn't want to happen.
I had to pawn my laptop.
Yes.
The same laptop I use for work.
The same laptop I use to learn.
The same laptop I use to develop my games.
The tool I was supposed to use to build my way out of this situationโฆ
is now sitting in a pawn shop because I needed the money to deal with the immediate pressure.
That was one of the hardest decisions I've had to make.
Because for me, it wasn't just a laptop.
It was my workplace.
My development environment.
My way to create.
My way to learn.
And one of the few tools I have that can actually help me build a better future.
I wanted Day 4 and Day 5 to be about showing you progress on my game.
Instead, I'm writing this from a completely different place.
But I'm not going to disappear because things got worse.
I promised to show you the real journey.
And this is the real journey.
Sometimes you don't lose because you quit.
Sometimes you have to temporarily give up something important just to survive the next few days.
I'm still trying to solve the debt.
I'm still working.
I'm still trying to recover.
And I'm still trying to find a way forward.
But now I have an even bigger reason to get through this.
I want my laptop back.
I want to sit down again.
Open my project.
Write code.
Build something.
And look back at this week knowing that it didn't destroy me.
If you can help, even $1, $5, or $10 can genuinely make a difference.
If you can't donate, please repost.
You might not be able to solve my situation.
But you can help this reach someone who can.
I'm not asking you to build my future for me.
I'm asking for enough breathing room to get through this crisis and continue building it myself.
5 days are gone.
I fell behind.
I went quiet.
My mental state has been getting worse.
I had to pawn my laptop.
But I'm still here.
2 days left.
And I'm still fighting for the chance to get back to my work.
Tomorrow, I'll show you where I stand.
No filters.
No pretending.
Just the truth.
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DAY 3/7 โ I'm late. But I didn't disappear.
I was supposed to post earlier today.
I didn't.
And honestly, I'm sorry.
The last few days have been chaos.
Pain.
Debt.
Pressure.
Work.
Fear.
Every day feels like I'm trying to solve ten problems with two hands.
And today, for a moment, I felt like I was falling behind on everything.
Behind on my debts.
Behind on my plans.
Behind on the future I keep telling myself I'm going to build.
I wanted today's update to be something exciting.
I wanted to sit down, open my game project, and show you:
โI'm back. I'm building again.โ
But life had other plans.
And that's when I realized something.
Building your future doesn't always look like progress.
Sometimes it looks like surviving a day you didn't think you could survive.
Sometimes progress is simply refusing to disappear when everything inside you tells you to shut down.
So yes.
I'm late.
But I'm here.
I'm still trying to work.
I'm still dealing with the consequences of the accident.
I'm still trying to solve the debt.
I'm still trying to get my health and my life back under control.
And somewhere in the middle of all this chaos, I still haven't given up on the person I want to become.
I still want to build games.
I still want to create projects.
I still want to build a team.
Maybe right now I don't look like someone building a future.
Right now, I'm just a guy trying to survive one difficult week.
But every big story starts somewhere.
And maybe this is mine.
Not the part where everything magically gets better.
The part where I decide not to quit.
3 days are gone.
I have 4 days left to solve this urgent situation.
I still need help.
If you can support me with even $1, $5, or $10, it genuinely helps.
And if you can't donate, please do one thing for me:
Repost this.
You may not be able to change my situation directly.
But your repost could put this story in front of someone who can.
I'm not asking the internet to save me.
I'm asking for a chance to survive this chapter and keep writing the next one myself.
To everyone who has read, shared, followed, or supported me so far:
Thank you.
You have no idea how much it means to know that I'm not shouting into an empty room.
DAY 3/7.
I'm late.
I'm exhausted.
I'm scared.
But I'm still here.
And tomorrowโฆ
we keep going. โค๏ธ
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I wasn't planning to post this right now.
I usually plan my posts for the evening.
Today, I was actually preparing to show you something different.
I wanted to show that, after everything that happened, I had finally started working on my game again.
I wanted to show progress.
I wanted to show you that I'm still trying to move forward.
But today, reality changed my plans.
I owe people money, and the pressure has reached a point where I'm being asked to pay today.
I don't have enough to cover it.
And now I'm facing a decision I honestly never wanted to make:
I have to take my only laptop โ the same laptop I've been using to work, learn, create and develop my game โ to a pawn shop to get the money I need to pay my debts.
That laptop isn't just a piece of technology to me.
It's my workplace.
It's where I write code.
Where I work on my game.
Where I learn.
Where I try to build the future I've been talking about.
And today, I may have to give it up just to get through another crisis.
That's a difficult thing to admit.
Especially after telling you that I wanted to return and start sharing my development journey again.
I wanted today's post to be:
โI'm back to development.โ
Instead, it's:
โI'm trying to keep my head above water.โ
I'm not posting this to make anyone feel sorry for me.
I'm posting it because I said I would be honest about this journey โ including the days when things don't go according to plan.
And right now, I'm struggling.
If you've been following my story, this is one of those moments where even a small amount of support could make a real difference.
$1. $5. $10.
Anything you can genuinely afford.
And if you can't donate, please repost this.
Seriously.
You might not be able to help me financially, but you might know someone who can.
I don't want to lose the only tool I have to build my way out of this situation.
I want to get back to my laptop.
I want to get back to my game.
I want to get back to building.
And I still believe I can.
This isn't the update I wanted to give you today.
But it's the truth.
Thank you to everyone who's been reading, sharing, supporting, or simply following along.
I'll keep showing you what happens next.
I'm still here.
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After almost a year away, I'm finally back.
And this time, I don't want to disappear again.
For almost a year, I stepped away from sharing my journey, my ideas, and the projects I was working on.
A lot has happened since then.
And now, after everything that happened recently, I've realized something:
I don't want to build in silence anymore.
From now on, I want to share my journey openly.
Not only the good days.
The failures.
The difficult days.
The small wins.
The mistakes.
The progress.
The development of my games.
The ideas that work โ and the ones that completely fail. ๐
I want you to see the process, not just the final result.
And if you choose to support me during this difficult period, I want you to know that I won't simply disappear after receiving that support.
I'll keep showing up.
I'll share regular updates about my situation, my recovery, my work, and eventually my projects.
When I return fully to game development, I'll document that journey too.
From an idea.
To the first prototype.
To the first playable build.
To the first release.
And hopefully one dayโฆ
to a real team building something together.
I can't promise that everything will succeed.
I can't promise that the road will be easy.
But I can promise one thing:
I'll keep showing up and I'll keep building.
If you've been following me for a long time, thank you for coming back.
If you just discovered me today, welcome.
You might be finding me at one of the lowest points of my journeyโฆ
โฆbut hopefully you'll also be here when I reach some of the highest.
**This is Day 2.
I'm back.**
And this time, I'm staying. ๐
Follow along.
I'll be sharing the journey from here.
DAY 2/7 โ I'm still trying to stand back up.
Yesterday, I did something I never thought I'd do.
I asked strangers on the internet for help.
Honestly, I was nervous before posting it.
I didn't know if anyone would care.
I didn't know if anyone would believe me.
And I didn't know if anyone would even see it.
But I decided that staying silent wasn't going to solve anything.
So today, I'm here again.
My legs still hurt.
My feet are still covered in blisters from walking and working deliveries.
And mentally, I'm still trying to process everything that happened.
The accident didn't just damage a car.
It disrupted my life.
I'm in another country, trying to manage work, studies, daily expenses, debt, and my future all at the same time.
Some moments I'm calm.
Other moments, I look at everything that's happening and think:
โHow am I going to get through this?โ
But then I remind myself why I'm fighting.
I don't want to spend my life running from problems.
I want to solve this one and keep moving.
I want to go back to developing my game.
I want to build something of my own.
And eventually, I want to build a team where other people can create with me.
That's why I'm asking for help now.
Not because I want someone else to live my life for me.
I just need a bridge to get through this difficult moment.
My urgent goal is still $1,500+, plus the expenses I need for my health and recovery.
I have 6 days left.
If you can donate โ even $1, $5, or $10 โ thank you.
If you can't donate, please repost this post.
You might not be able to help me financially.
But you might be able to help me reach someone who can.
And honestly, right now, that matters just as much.
I'll keep updating everything openly throughout these 7 days.
No fake numbers.
No pretending everything is okay.
Just one person trying to get back on his feet.
Day 2/7.
I'm still here.
I'm still working.
And I'm still trying.
โค๏ธ
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I never thought I would have to write a post like this.
But right now, I genuinely need help.
A few days ago, I was involved in a car accident.
My legs were injured, and I'm still dealing with both the physical pain and the psychological aftermath. Walking has become painful.
For the last three days, I've been doing delivery work on foot, and my feet are now covered in painful blisters.
I'm sharing a photo because I don't want this to sound like an exaggerated story. This is what my reality looks like right now.
And despite all of that, I'm still trying to work.
I'm currently living in another country, and I'm trying to balance work, my studies, everyday responsibilities, and everything else that comes with trying to build a future.
Honestly, it's been hard.
The accident didn't just hurt my body.
It knocked me down mentally too.
There are moments when the anxiety becomes overwhelming. My heart starts racing when I think about the debt, the deadlines, my health, my studies, and what happens if I can't solve all of this in time.
The hardest part isn't even the pain.
It's knowing that there is a $1,500 debt hanging over me.
The car I was driving was rented, and after the accident I now have to deal with the rental costs and repair expenses. I also need money for my health and recovery.
I know some people may wonder why I'm not posting photos of the damaged car.
Unfortunately, I don't currently have access to those photos. They are stored on my iPhone, which I had to leave as collateral with the owner of the rental car.
As soon as I regain access to my phone and the photos, I'll share them.
I've been given a limited amount of time to resolve the situation.
I have about 7 days.
If I can't cover the expenses, I'm being told that the situation may be taken further and a police report may be filed.
I'm honestly scared.
Not because I'm afraid of working.
I'm afraid that one terrible accident could completely derail everything I've been trying to build.
Because I have plans.
I want to make games.
I want to build projects.
I want to create a team.
I want to eventually give other people an opportunity to create alongside me.
I don't want this accident to become the story of my life.
I want it to become a chapter I survived.
So I'm asking the people who believe in independent creators, developers, dreamers, and people trying to build something from nothing:
Please help me get through this week.
You don't need to give a lot.
$1.
$5.
$10.
Whatever you can genuinely afford.
And if you can't donate, please repost this.
Seriously.
You might think one repost doesn't matter.
But one repost can reach 10 people.
Those 10 people can reach 100.
And somewhere in that chain might be the person who can help me get through this.
If you can't help financially, help me reach someone who can.
That's all I'm asking.
I'm not asking you to build my future for me.
I'm asking you to help me get through this setback so I can get back to building it myself.
And when I get through this, I want to remember the people who stood beside me.
When I return to developing my game, I want to open the project to people who genuinely want to create โ artists, programmers, designers, writers, developers, and anyone with the skills and passion to build something together.
Maybe one day, some of the people reading this won't just be supporters.
Maybe we'll become teammates.
Right now, though, I need help.
7 days.
$1,500+ in urgent expenses, plus health and recovery costs.
This is Day 1.
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If you can't donate:
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Even one share can change who sees this.
Thank you for reading this far.
And thank you to anyone who chooses to stand beside me during one of the hardest moments I've faced.
I still believe I can turn this chapter into the beginning of something better. โค๏ธ
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My legs were injured, and I'm still dealing with both the physical pain and the psychological aftermath. Walking has become painful. For the last three days, I've been walking so much that my feet are covered in blisters.
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