ArtianS

Attempting Digital Artist.
I'm trying to get better, but it's an uphill battle.
I like weird stuff, so be warned.

[ArtianS @ArtianSetS]

I think I should give up on this site. I'm "artians" on the blurple app if you want to get into contact.

[ArtianS @ArtianSetS]

A tragic thing about my protogen characters, specifically those which I've based on my personality, is that I'll never be able to use them for fantasy settings. They don't fit in those worlds. Maybe that's why I don't either.

[ArtianS @ArtianSetS]

@MrJairorate I'm really sorry to hear that you'll be gone again soon, and I really really hope you manage to find commission work elsewhere. You're an amazing artist and really deserve it.

[ArtianS @ArtianSetS]

@wao_art Not sure how "awesome" they are, and certainly their ref sheet needs a rework, but may as well try. Thanks for the opportunity, and can't wait to see what cool protos you end up sketching!

[ArtianS @ArtianSetS]

Crafted a Porco Rosso papercraft globe, looks awesome and I love it

[ArtianS @ArtianSetS]

Munch being flung #TribalHunter

[ArtianS @ArtianSetS]

Here's V being happy I guess. Old art still because I mean look at how bad those paws look. #protogen

[ArtianS @ArtianSetS]

And here's another why not of Arti trying to keep it together I guess I don't know. I remember I made it in like 10 minutes during a depressive episode. #protogen

[ArtianS @ArtianSetS]

I don't know what I mean by doing this. I want to do digital art but I just can't find the motivation and this depression is killing me.

[ArtianS @ArtianSetS]

Here's an old headshot of V feeling sad. Which is how I feel right now. I'm going to use hashtags because I'm honestly so fucking alone it hurts. #protogen

[ArtianS @ArtianSetS]

I'm such a horrible person.

[ArtianS @ArtianSetS]

I just have an innate inability to merge with social groups.

[ArtianS @ArtianSetS]

There are people in this life that you cannot help. I am one of those people.

[ArtianS @ArtianSetS]

Xanax nap. Haunted, haunted by apparitions. Masked smiles, totem poles, tiki faces. Paralyzed. Helpless. Couldn't escape. Taunted. Always present. Fears locked away. What fears? What fears? What fears?

[ArtianS @ArtianSetS]

@Yegartist Aww that's really cute!

[ArtianS @ArtianSetS]

Should I even call myself a digital artist anymore? I don't even really do it now.

[ArtianS @ArtianSetS]

Outlet? OUTLET! I don't have one. Does this count? Nobody sees these! Nobody ever saw anything I did here. Not even when I had a hundred followers when I did shit that people tuned in for. Hell maybe it's better to cast my words to the void. To mark it down to be handed to nobody

[ArtianS @ArtianSetS]

Yeah, it was. Not a momentary dip, I've been feeling crappy these past few days.

And to one specific person, if you're still for whatever reason viewing this, no, it's not because I 'deserve' it for that argument. Hate me all you want, but I don't care what you think about me.

[ArtianS @ArtianSetS]

This is the crash I was worried about. I was feeling good for a good while. Now it's come down. Softer than I expected, but I'm here all the same, on the ground.

[ArtianS @ArtianSetS]

I DON'T deserve to feel this way. My situation isn't crappy, so me feeling that way isn't warranted. So why the fuck am I? I want so badly to split into two identical me's and then beat the shit out of myself for being the loser I am. "Get a fucking grip! You should be happy!"

[ArtianS @ArtianSetS]

This is the crash I was worried about. I was feeling good for a good while. Now it's come down. Softer than I expected, but I'm here all the same, on the ground.