because what kinda fan miss their Kamisohi graduation? so despite all the memory she left behind I just can't look at them because I feel bad. even fan arts make me sad. (end)
herd someone ask "if you're sana fan, then why I never see you watching her past stream, song, or related content?"
fuck it I'll say it, I'm emotional and I literally tear or almost tear up, when watching content related to her. I just can't, I hate that too. (1)
also because just about 1 month before she announced her graduation I leave the Vtuber space because at that time I'm really busy and forget about Vtuber until 1 year ago. so coming back only to see her already gone for years hurt so bad. (2)