Every time i look into a mirror is see something. Not me, not anyone. Rather i saw a shell made of hatred and anger. the only thing i see is hate on everything.
When you love someone, they occupy your mind. When you hate someone, they also occupy your mind.
Because both emotions require you to deeply care about the target, the brain chemistry involved is surprisingly similar. I don't even know anymore. I just can only HATE EVERYTHING.
If people who love can succumb to hate and people who hate can succumb to love. Then why am I hateful and only succumb to nothing? What really is the difference between love and hate? The thing I know is the opposite of both love and hate is apathy. Then who or what really am I?
Think of love and hate as two branches growing from the exact same emotional root. Both love and hate are high-arousal emotions. both require a massive investment of your mental energy, focus, and time. Then whats happening to me? Why can I only hate? Can't i really not hate?