. . I’ll figure it out . .
[ Shifting himself up and starting to stand up, his wings remained tucked as he felt it would be rude to open them in front of her. ]
—
. . How would I even get anyone to help me with such a task ?
Everyone hates me . .
[ He wasn’t entirely wrong, he just didn’t have anyone he trusted that could do it. ]
If I plot against my people in such a high position that I’ve been assigned . . my lord would surely be disappointed and I cannot afford to have that happen . .
He’s a deity . .
He protects our lands but, disappointing him is something we don’t ever want to do . .
[ Hesitantly looking to her as he spoke, he felt shame more than anything at the moment. ]
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⠀ “ your what ? ' lord ' ? ” asura snorted . she never understood why people couldn't rebel . “ isn't that lord also displeased with you anyway ? or , do you mean a deity or something . ”
My lord would disapprove of me . .
I cannot do that again . .
[ His head stayed tucked, he doesn’t even care that he barely knows her.
He can’t do this anywhere else, he needed to get it out, even if it’s not everything. ]
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. . That’s completely against what I believe.
If I plot against them and follow through with it, that won’t change their view on me . . it’ll only make it worse . .
[ Their hands lifted to their head, slight tug at his hair.
Tucking into himself. ]
[ His hand released his shaw as he looked down at his hands, wings less tense lowered like a shame filled animal. ]
I can’t even try and fix it by apologizing . . They won’t listen to me . .
It feels like they’re plotting against me . .
[ His grip tightened as he took a deep breath and sighed. ]
Every time I’m there . . I feel people constantly staring at me . . I know why and I hate the reason why . .
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a close few , to hide away from the people themselves . if tanek did the same , they would seek a lonely place , right ?
⠀ maybe not , she realized .
⠀ without malice , without judgement , then she asked ,
⠀ “ . . . why ? ”