Life is either becoming more enjoyable or im just accepting that this is what life is, whatever it is. Im living it. And im starting to enjoy what I used to without thinking I need to wait for anyone, or im taking away from someone. Im happy living my life enjoying what i enjoy.
@DRCsyntax Well said, I think its something that I have done my best to move past but it always hits me at random. And everytime even after my own evaluation it continues to stump my brain and im in a endless loop. Only thing I can do is be happy for me and eventually move on. Time heals.
Would you let something eat you alive for the rest of your life, or would you rather reach out to someone who wants nothing to do with you. Leaving you with more unsaid feelings then you had before.
And I now do all the stuff I love doing. And no, i don’t have my relationship anymore, and i probably never will have that again. But, I should just be happy with myself. And be proud that im back to doing stuff that makes me proud, not anyone else. If you’re on board, cool.
I think something that i realized just now that, me being not enough was never about myself. I thought that maybe if I changed who I was that she would love me more. But at the end of the day, why would you think that? They fell in love with you for you, not anything else.
I had a conversation with my friend and he said that by the end of my relationship, i wasn’t myself. I wasn’t finding enjoyment in what i normally did. I was so focused on things that don’t matter to me and my own insecurities that I lost myself. Every day after work I get home