Eternity

—"would you buy me a drink?"

[Eternity @BPyoom]

I mean he wouldn't chat me if he didn't care about me at ALL. It was his grandma's birthday yesterday but he still made a great effort for me (I forgot to greet his grandma Im so fucking deceased).

I don't care if he doesn't chat me again, one time's good enough, love that guy.

[Eternity @BPyoom]

My crush just chatted me at midnight, this is actually the best birthday ever. He's like, the prettiest, smartest, green flag guy ever. (Plus, he's a big fan of being a student leader)

A hot loser × A handsome and smart, organization goat who ACED THE DAMN PRE-BOARDINGS.

[Eternity @BPyoom]

I mean it'll be stupid for him to fall for an insane mofo, but I don't mind if he does. I'll even ask if he's sure, like man I know Im cute but it's not the same inside the cranium iykwim.

But what if he's secretly a nutcase too? I would literally fall head over heels man <3

[Eternity @BPyoom]

Doesn't seem plausible to me but I can dream all I damn want fuckers. He's literally treasured by professors and the same professors are contemplating whether I harbor psychotic tendencies (we're so meant to be). He can give me a kill list and it'll done at the end of the day.

[Eternity @BPyoom]

How I'll be moving for my first day on the job later

[Eternity @BPyoom]

Inevitably, we'll remember the things and people we lost along the way. Even the versions of ourselves we had to outgrow.

We can mourn for the missing but time won't give us another chance. A subtle nudge to look ahead, it's time to go child.

Savor the bittersweet memories.

[Eternity @BPyoom]

With my avoidance, I swear to god every social interaction is just a whole game of coin flip.

If it's heads, we talk almost flawlessly; if it's tails, I smack you then I run away like hell.

This face just makes sure I get away with these bullshit.

[Eternity @BPyoom]

Divine spiritual ascension steps:

— It's a rainy day
— Play FFX
— Watch the summer hikaru died
— Bury your leftover apple for your plants
— ALMOST GET FUCKING KILLED BY LIGHTNING
— Question your life

It wasn't ascension but it totally made me ask the gods wtf was that.

[Eternity @BPyoom]

WHY IS EVERYTHING SO ANNOYING RIGHT NOW I WANT TO BUY A TANK AND JUST START BLASTING

[Eternity @BPyoom]

Why did I have to start reading this book again and translate the stupid Japanese on your stupid bookmark?

You're hella annoying. I mean, it's a mark of healing to see scars of the past and giggle unfazed.

How bittersweet, the blue moon's truly upon us.

[Eternity @BPyoom]

Day 1 of just blocking without feeling bad about it, I feel like I just discovered the ecstasy of the heavens.

Top it off with a middle finger flip and damn, better than any pleasure I've ever had. I should do this more often, it's so criminal and liberating.

[Eternity @BPyoom]

Well what do you know? Just woke up and already got harrassed by a guy with a d-pic after seeing a pic of me online.

You know I should start culling these losers and start offering them to the moon goddess.

They're so annoying

[Eternity @BPyoom]

PS, oh yeah, a topless picture was the best he got from me, I didn't send anything else don't worry.

[Eternity @BPyoom]

Really, Im spiraling because of a recent annoyance. A guy liked me, he was pretty harrassive and so insufferable I hate it.

We properly introduced, he can't stop going about sex and how "cute" I am given that he likes "goths."

Yes I like goths but Im not one.

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[Eternity @BPyoom]

I blocked all of his handles, I never really stay out much often anymore.

What a creepy dude, Im lowkey traumatized and already staying off the radar for a really long while.

However, it feels safe now so whatever.

—End—

[Eternity @BPyoom]

Then I rejected him cuz really, too much was at stake to play the waiting game. If he wanted to stalk and kill me, I'll be ready with my ceremonial dagger.

Fortunately, he accepted it without any issue, turns out he was courting another cuz he did lose interest (whew).

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[Eternity @BPyoom]

I was just waiting for him to lose interest, at the same time I was digging for information. Guess what? He has a live-in partner for almost a decade now.

I also had a feeling he's abusive. I wish the best for that person. I really had to eject myself from the situation.

(9)

[Eternity @BPyoom]

I seriously just wanted him to get off me, but can't say it directly cuz Im threatened, he knows a bit too much, I don't want my family to be a part of my problem.

I kept playing nice but still kept the sex a big no-no, he thinks Im just playing coy.

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[Eternity @BPyoom]

He then invited me to his house afterwards, offering a ride there. I declined and said I should go home or my mom's gonna kill me.

We then got into a passive aggressive argument where he "spent a lot" on me and it's virtuous to pay it back.

What an asshole.

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[Eternity @BPyoom]

Crazy fact is I never even told him the more personal stuff. I don't know how he digged, don't know where he got it. He just does.

Then, he invited me to dinner which I went to, hesitantly. He desperately wanted me to post it publicly but I never did. So controlling.

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[Eternity @BPyoom]

(sleepy I forget to number stuff)

He got worse with the harrassments, even with sweet words, he managed to scare me by knowing where I live, study, and basically my daily routine.

He basically subtly told me he has all the leverage to blackmail me with.

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