ㅤ
ㅤ[ he, in fact, minds.
ㅤhowever he wouldn't
ㅤlet Choso know. avoiding
ㅤhis eyes in the cold
ㅤreflection of the mirror.
ㅤinstead he keeps his
ㅤgaze to his own figure.
ㅤbut his heart is excited
ㅤto be noticed like this. ]
ㅤ
ㅤ𝑪𝑶𝑵𝑻𝑹𝑶𝑳 𝑨𝑩𝑶𝑽𝑬 𝑨𝑳𝑳 𝑬𝑳𝑺𝑬
ㅤ[ he's embarrassed to
ㅤadmit that he's still a
ㅤlittle ... unstable.
ㅤhowever, the new
ㅤjujutsu administration
ㅤput a rule upon his
ㅤrehabilitation and
ㅤreintroduction. he has
ㅤto be broken in. ]
ㅤ
ㅤ
ㅤ📲 : as I stated, I'm acting
ㅤas if I haven't seen it. be
ㅤgrateful.
ㅤ[ it is rekindling. the need.
ㅤthe ever - simmering
ㅤfrustration. it burns in his
ㅤabdomen, it claws at the
ㅤgroin which nestles said
ㅤinsatiable need. ]
ㅤ
ㅤ
ㅤ
ㅤ[ it must be an unfortunate
ㅤfeeling to be left on read.
ㅤit is even more unfortunate
ㅤto be forcing oneself to
ㅤkeep their hands away both
ㅤfrom their phone and from
ㅤtheir pants. he needs a
ㅤstrong coffee. ]
ㅤ
ㅤ
ㅤ📲 : I will act as if I
ㅤhaven't opened and
ㅤthen fully watched it.
ㅤ[ the time between his
ㅤnext message was
ㅤdangerously long. then
ㅤa ping. ]
ㅤ📲 : sometimes I wish
ㅤI could act as if I
ㅤwasn't aware of the law.
ㅤ
ㅤ𝑨 𝑻𝑹𝑼𝑬 𝑷𝑨𝑻𝑯 𝑻𝑶 𝑹𝑬𝑳𝑨𝑿𝑨𝑻𝑰𝑶𝑵
ㅤ[ fingers hooked on the
ㅤcheeks. his manhood as
ㅤdeep in as physics allow
ㅤhim. he's not gentle, he's
ㅤnot careful. but that's the
ㅤonly way to get rid of his
ㅤungodly, painful tension. ]
ㅤ
ㅤ𝑯𝑬 𝑪𝑯𝑨𝑵𝑮𝑬𝑫, 𝑱𝑼𝑺𝑻 𝑨 𝑳𝑰𝑻𝑻𝑳𝑬
ㅤ[ other than his mind,
ㅤwhich is still fighting the
ㅤold habits — his body.
ㅤhe's never been proud
ㅤover matters of flesh.
ㅤyet now, when he looks
ㅤin the mirror . . .
ㅤmaybe he is hot. ]
ㅤ
ㅤ𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐅𝐔𝐍𝐄𝐑𝐀𝐋𝐒 𝐖𝐄𝐑𝐄 𝐀 𝐁𝐋𝐔𝐑
ㅤ[ sometimes he wonders
ㅤif the deaths were a
ㅤnecessity for his life
ㅤto begin anew. a
ㅤselfish thought. and the
ㅤsuffocating weight of
ㅤhis conscience forcing
ㅤhim to mourn — insincerely. ]
ㅤ