B. Swan

A thinker of life

[B. Swan @BSwan_diary]

These days I've figured some few things about me.
One, i have fuckin daddy issues.
Two, i have peniaphobia.
Three, i hate garlic.
Four, i have a dream goal of dying with someone.
There's more but .. for now I'll share that much

[B. Swan @BSwan_diary]

Gosh, I've grown old.. i mean everyone grew old. As i review on my old entries i've written here on this platform.. hah i'm pretty a lovesick. To the point i feel embarased at myself. I have no idea who even is reading my musings but it feels nice to sprout whatever i want :>

[B. Swan @BSwan_diary]

Looking for moots or people who i can vibe with, i write my heart out here in twitter... follow me so i could follow you back lets be friends~

- #Anitwt #mootstwt #poetry #thoughts #quotes #ActiveListening #active #love #FolloForFolloBack #HonkaiStarRail #Tbt #happy

[B. Swan @BSwan_diary]

Screw your pale skin.. I hate to admit, that you are good-looking and to even got the brains.. screw you soo much to have all of my desires of a guy in you.. face ,body ,smell, voice, humor... I hate myself for not letting you slide, how could I ever forget you...? help me forget

[B. Swan @BSwan_diary]

Today was so cute.. I cropped my hair than when we met I saw that you have also had a different hair today . You trimmed it.. think we are destined? I wonder.

[B. Swan @BSwan_diary]

Really turned on right now..
You spoke to me today didn’t you? It lasted about some moments for I was dazzled by your voice advising me that I was in the wrong place and that I should go there instead.. just like a gentleman letting his girl go front of him, what a pleased memory

[B. Swan @BSwan_diary]

You so perfect in my mind.
You’re divine in my eyes,
Almost as if like a prince.
When will my prince open these eyes of mine and,
Caressed my lonely mind,
And not mind too much of my carelessness?
My love when can we ever meet
When? and not in dreams.

[B. Swan @BSwan_diary]

I love you as much as how much I love my wine.
Yet, it is stupid that you don’t understand me even so.
Love you too much to the extent of hating you and never forgiving you.
Love you very too much that I want to lock you somewhere where there is just me and you.

[B. Swan @BSwan_diary]

My love for you are like my tears… it shall always remain in my eyes even though I cry so much it will not still run out.

[B. Swan @BSwan_diary]

I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you so much please go back to the old you…you’ve changed drastically so much beyond my imagination. Please go back to your old self, I miss you.

[B. Swan @BSwan_diary]

Please , when will you realized my feelings for you? When my love? I am dying here to see the end of us.

[B. Swan @BSwan_diary]

My relationship with you is so bad. Neither are we friends nor strangers, we fought once, we teased or even bully one another.. I was sane back than, I never realized my feelings for you. Now I do and I regret it…

[B. Swan @BSwan_diary]

I am so weird I say about my unrequited love here on the medias… if you would’ve figured me out .. I would jump down a building for the embarrassment.

[B. Swan @BSwan_diary]

“Today you were without your glasses.. you look way cooler either way.” How can I every say these words to your face? I’m so weird.

[B. Swan @BSwan_diary]

Miss you so much it hurts to be delusional..

[B. Swan @BSwan_diary]

Yet, why do I not dream about you in my sleep? Am I just feeling lust and not love? I want your answer…

[B. Swan @BSwan_diary]

I hate you but why do I also love you? Your face won’t stop popping on my mind nonstop … everyday

[B. Swan @BSwan_diary]

I think I’ve given up on you.. would you have even cared if I told you that? Would you?