we are staying SO OPTIMISTIC & ALIVE despite the unending evidence that the universe hates me and I never had a chance and nothing can be fixed and theres nothing left for me and everything is fleeting but JOY OPTIMISM FAKE CONVIDNECE EVERYTHIGNG ELSE PEOPLE USE TO FOOL THEMSELF
me realizing it's been too long since I did a town crier about these media's + not flooding the search results of them + finding a way to shill bsky acct
they were all fucking liars and there was always another option but at this point now it's gonn take who knows how much time/money just to fix their mistakes
imagine how different my life could be right now if I wasn't legally blind in one eye (function both eventually) and I didn't have every doctor until now tell me (INCORRECTLY) 'welp theres nothing we can do about it so youre just gonna have to suffer with it bud :)'
me glasses that actually made it WORSE the 2nd dr said 'well your only choice is surgery (INCORRECT) and I PERSONALLY dont feel comfy doing that since it's degenerative and youill just have to do this operation again later in life'
when you take into consideration possible changing housing situation, endless medical conditions and current political nonsense then boy the future sure do feel uncertain and scary right now
I have only ever gone by (y) in my daily life, not even a conscious decision its just always been that way
but then I gotta identify myself as (x) and if that doesnt bring up a result then (x y) and if that doesn't work then (xy) as a single word if not that then (x-y) hyphenated
every time there is an official government thing I am pleasantly reminded how my father had a massive concussion and strong medication at the time of naming me so now no one can agree what my legal name is meant to be
me realizing it's been too long since I did a town crier about these media's + not flooding the search results of them + finding a way to shill bsky acct