I just wish I was someone who was able to be welcomed instead of tolerated. Or, more accurately, someone who is able to allow myself to feel that way and able to differentiate between the two instead of constant anxiety of the latter. I just hope I'm doing good at being a person.
I'm gonna be so honest. I have been struggling a lot lately with a deep anxiety that people don't actually like me and that I'm a person they have to deal with and smile to my face, rather than a person they actually enjoy being around and I'm not sure what to do about it.
I don't use Twitter basically ever. And I don't usually post stuff about this kind of thing. I think I just have been feeling really down on myself lately and needed a void to speak into. Something that feels like I could be heard, yet still fade into the noise, unseen.
Big milestone! Today the RT YouTube channel crossed nine million subs for the third time! 📈📉📈
We could not have done this without your support, then lack of support, then support again.
Additionally, traumas can make it hard to function. Maybe you missed that birthday. Maybe you don't return that call. Maybe you sit at your computer for hours staring into the void.
Maybe you don't get out of bed today.
Maybe you just try.