Nobody preached to me to get saved.
I saw Him myself. Saw his pierced hands, His hair like wool, His eyes like fire, looking straight into His face was like looking into the sun.
The Holy fear wrapped in indescribable love and acceptance changed my life.
16.02.2013
“Posterity will judge our generation for entertaining the faux comparison between Lionel Messi and Cristiano Ronaldo as though it were a genuine rivalry.”
I remember when I was struggling with masturbation, pornography, and sexual immorality, I reached out to a man of God.
He counseled me.
He prayed for me.
He encouraged me.
But after that meeting, that same night, I masturbated again.
That same weekend, I fornicated again.
And that was when I realized something painful:
Nobody can fight your private battles for you if you are unwilling to fight them yourself.
Some of us want deliverance without discipline.
We want freedom without denying the flesh.
We want prayers without responsibility.
We want oil on our heads while entertaining darkness in our rooms.
I discovered that as long as I was waiting for another person to carry my burden spiritually while I remained passive, I would keep falling into the same cycles.
My freedom started the day I took responsibility before God.
Not when somebody shouted “fire.”
Not when hands were laid on me.
Not when I attended another conference.
My freedom started when I got tired of disappointing God and myself.
I took 21 days and prayed consistently against that spirit.
Not casually.
Not emotionally.
Aggressively.
There were days I cried.
Days I failed.
Days I felt condemned.
But I kept going back to God instead of running away from Him.
I started cutting off the things feeding my flesh.
I stopped entertaining ladies who only called me into temptation.
I stopped visiting certain places.
I stopped consuming certain content.
I stopped listening to music that awakened lust in me.
I stopped feeding the very thing I was asking God to kill.
Because you cannot pray against fire while pouring petrol on it every day.
Many people are praying for purity while still protecting the environment that destroys them.
You cannot keep sleeping in Delilah’s house and expect Samson’s strength to remain.
At some point, I had to stop making excuses.
I stopped saying:
“This generation is hard.”
“Men struggle.”
“Everybody is doing it.”
“God understands.”
No.
I had to make a decision.
A real decision.
Not a church decision.
Not an emotional altar-call decision.
A private decision made in the presence of God when nobody was clapping for me.
I stopped announcing my struggles to everybody and started seeking God personally as Tevin.
Because there are battles where people can encourage you, but only you can surrender fully to God.
And slowly, God began to change me.
The urges reduced.
The addiction weakened.
My mind became cleaner.
My convictions became stronger.
Not because I became perfect overnight…
But because I stopped playing with the very thing that was destroying me.
Listen carefully:
Some demons leave by prayer.
Some habits leave by discipline.
Some struggles leave when you finally become honest before God.
There are things counseling can help with.
There are things accountability can help with.
But there are also battles where God is waiting for YOU to stand up and say:
“Enough is enough.”
Freedom is possible.
Not fake freedom for social media.
Not temporary freedom during church conferences.
Real freedom.
I know because I lived it.
And if you are secretly struggling today with pornography, masturbation, lust, fornication, hidden sexual sin, don’t give up on yourself.
Run to God.
Not away from Him.
Stop normalizing the chains.
Stop laughing about what is killing your spirit.
Stop waiting for everybody else to carry your responsibility.
Go before God honestly.
Cut off what feeds the addiction.
Pray consistently.
Discipline your flesh.
Fill your life with the Word of God.
And keep fighting.
Because the same God who delivered me can deliver you too.
Older ministers should normalise shutting down the excesses of "campus ministry show biz" when invited.
The other day, during a campus meeting, before I began my pep talk, I had to insist that the "fake bodyguards" standing at the podium return to their seats and hopefully listen to God's word.
These people are young.
If they are innocently naive, then we must be able to prune their excesses and show them that true ministry is about selfless service and stooping low so that Christ will be exalted.
Otherwise, we will successfully mass-produce a generation of future ministers who are skilled in self-exaltation in the order of Lucifer instead of the meek and quiet spirit of Christ; the Servant of God.
The only issue is that you are not likely going to be invited again because of your insistence on truth but at least you would have demonstrated that ministry is first about what God wants and not what we like or enjoy.
Thank you. But Easter is not represented by eggs.
It is represented by an empty tomb signifying that Jesus Christ came in the form of a man, crucified, died a humiliating death, buried in a tomb but rose again after 3 days to set humanity free from the shackles of sin and hell.
@ManUtd Thank you. But Easter is not represented by eggs.
It is represented by an empty tomb signifying that Jesus Christ came in the form of a man, crucified, died a humiliating death, buried in a tomb but rose again after 3 days to set humanity free from the shackles of sin and hell.
The Apostles followed Jesus everywhere.
They saw his miracles, heard his sermons, slept in the same houses, and were eyewitnesses to His death.
But Jesus told them to wait for the Spirit's power to become effective witnesses.
Because witnessing is not about knowing the facts, it's about replicating the Works.
A renowned and well respected professor in our city tried to visit his child in a boarding school at a time when the school didn't permit. He got rejected at the gate. He went back to tell all his friends and colleague about how well the school is run. If they could reject him...
He is what David Hundeyin calls, 'gutter elite.' We have so many rich people who are stupid.
If you can't recognize that the security did a perfect job, because of your ego, you're very foolish.
How is he supposed to know the owner of the estate? You should be happy he isn't cowering to wealth at the detriment of security.
What I always find amusing is when people who have mastered the "wisdom of silence" in the face of wickedness and evil suddenly find their voices when it is time to criticize those who "harshly" condemn evil.
Sometimes the greatest faith is expressed in stillness.
DAY 8 of 30 DAYS DAILY BIBLE VERSE CHALLENGE
08.11.25
Psalms 46:10 NIV
He says, “Be still, and know that I am God...
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DAY 6 of 30 DAYS DAILY BIBLE VERSE CHALLENGE
06.11.25
Psalms 85:6 NIV
Will you not revive us again, that your people may rejoice in you?
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DAY 5 of 30 DAYS DAILY BIBLE VERSE CHALLENGE
05.11.25
Matthew 5:14 NIV
You are the light of the world. A town built on a hill cannot be hidden.
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DAY 4 of 30 DAYS DAILY BIBLE VERSE CHALLENGE
05.11.25
James 2:26 NIV
As the body without the spirit is dead, so faith without deeds is dead.
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