some people will call your boundaries distance because they were used to reaching you without effort, but you don’t have to keep holding the door open for energy that never earned the key, or that only knocks when it’s convenient.
many will be moved by the oceans inside you, intrigued by the flow of your energy, but very few will be able to swim in the waves you give off, unable to look at their own reflection in the water. you don’t have to shrink your depth so people can float in your presence.
july, cleanse my intentions in light. remove anything that blocks me from seeing myself, the layers i’ve outgrown, the noise i’ve mistaken for direction and the versions of me that were only meant to be temporary. make room for the parts of me that don’t need permission to exist.
Accountability means a lot to me. Nobody is perfect, we all make mistakes, but don’t try to shift the blame and make my reaction the problem when your actions are what caused the hurt in the first place. Take responsibility for what you did before questioning how I responded.
I'm at the point of my life where as long as I know I did right by you, I don't mind walking away when it don't work... family, friends, lovers, anybody!
The quickest way to lose me is to make me feel like I don’t matter. I don’t expect perfection from anybody, but I do pay attention to effort, consistency, and how people treat me over time. Once I start noticing that I’m always the one reaching out, always the one understanding, or always the one showing up, I take a step back. I don’t beg people to value me and I don’t compete for a place in anybody’s life. If somebody shows me where I stand, I believe it. And once I accept that, I move accordingly. Some things don’t need an argument, they just need distance.