If you’re a rapper take a lesson from this 📝
Keep yourself insulated from violence, we don’t want you getting killed
Keep yourself insulated from crime, we don’t want you locked up
WE WANT TO HEAR YOUR 📝
But yeah bye. Nothing new here. Ima keep working on this music. Cause I’m a fool but at least I don’t have to resign to always being a dead end nobody . Like it’s a dream and I can’t say I didn’t put in an effort
Like I just wish I could right a song like “gravity” or “lonely child” fr. Like bro if only I could put that shit out there and y’all really get it. Y’all would love me fr.
Karma too though. I’m big on understanding. Whether I meant too or not it’s a lot of people I’ve hurt. Bad don’t sleep. It sucks because it’s things I’d take back 10/10 times. Making poor decisions…not knowing the options enough to properly weigh them. Lack of wisdom
When BCG take off and we making hits. I’m probably gonna just move toward the mountains. Like it’ll be the same dynamic. Give you good parts you like and keep the bad far far away
And the worst people are the “well just shake it off or go do xyz activity” bro I could be with the girl of my dreams in Paris. If the sadness starts creeping in. I may have a day or 2 to get ready but there’s no beating it
Just bothers me deeply. Knowing that I can make a place for myself as an artist and somedays I can’t even get out of bed. And even after I do my mind is still there. Literally I’m a high or at least mid functioning depressed person.
I’m not saying I’m the best anything. Rapper producer anything. But I know I got enough bro. It’s like rocky. He knew he wasn’t meant for just what he was on.
Then I be tryna make turn up songs😂 like man some shit do be just wanting to make bangers. Tryna get that earworm. Like if I can just get you to buy in. Bro I’ll give you the album. I’ll paint the chapel ceiling.
I got agoraphobia…I have frequent panic attacks 😂but on stage I’m good af like nigga rn with this song on we 1 person. Cause if yk it that mean you probably felt these feelings too.
I just want the vindication as far as music. Like all this pain wasn’t for nothing. I wanted to quit after 8th grade. Smitty asked me to rap almost everyday freshman year and then I linked with jalin…I’m just good at writing ts out to a rhythm. I’m really not an industry type
Bro light years ahead of me he really might be the best rapper ever fr. But I’m saying I put my heart in my songs too. I vent about that shit too. It’s cool bro I know my songs not trash. I’ve made bad songs before but I do everything myself I’m teaching myself as I go
I’m literally if kyrie Irving had a day job. Like the same shit YoungBoy loved for. Mfs treat me like I’m weird. They do be on his ass too though.😂but bro be Broadday depressed asf and y’all love it and him. So it’s like? Is it me bro..bitch I rap too and im cold
Idk. It’s love. Sorry I didn’t text or call. I’ve been gone for a while now. Maybe it gets better maybe it don’t🤷🏾♂️ I’m literally trapped here regardless. Even if it isn’t true I feel like I owe so many people my own life..but I love everybody…P.S. I’m lost
“Home is where the hatred is” is a song that describes how I feel usually. The line about having to turn your sick soul inside out just so people will gratify you enough to even watch you die but especially the line “I left 3 days ago , no one seems to know I’m gone”
But if it were alcohol. People would be like…”you need to quit drinking” but because you can’t see it….it feels like a cruel joke sometimes. Like I’m invisible. Bleeding in front of everyone. No one stops. Imagine drowning in a pool full of people.
It’s like the older I get the worst it gets. So much pressure to create a family. Move away. Get a “nice car” like bro I’m consistently going to work. Showering. Reading. I’m doing the best I can. Think if this was alcoholism…it’s an altered state of mind I really can’t control
A girl tapped me on my shoulder today. Scared me. She was like “I love your earrings. Jesus loves you”//I was riding home from work and a car sticker told me to “stay here” like I just want it to get better