Zaagi'idiwin

Ojibwe. Paiute. 💟 Navigating through Indigenous motherhood.

[Zaagi'idiwin @BeeAndThree]

Apologizing to my oldest for raising him in survival while he watches my younger two be raised in love.

I know he struggles with his emotions because it was hard for me to manage mine while he was young. I did my absolute best with what I had.

[Zaagi'idiwin @BeeAndThree]

I used to watch car cleaning videos like ain't no way!

But now my kids have humbled me lol

[Zaagi'idiwin @BeeAndThree]

I'm not on socials much lately. Checking in. How is everyone doing?

Because I am finally feeling better both physically and emotionally 😌

[Zaagi'idiwin @BeeAndThree]

I watched this series called Kindred on Hulu.

There's no season 2 and now I am ordering the book online. The ending was too good to leave on a cliffhanger like that.

[Zaagi'idiwin @BeeAndThree]

Slowly school shopping now

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My kids are in the phase of sports where the moms have developed their own cliques and are mean.

[Zaagi'idiwin @BeeAndThree]

It's funny because I know I am a shorter person. But I wore flats yesterday and today.

Wow the perspective of the world around me when I'm not wearing heels. Definitely feel like a little kid rn lol

[Zaagi'idiwin @BeeAndThree]

It's also 93 degrees and my kids have gone through half a case of water to keep hydrated.

From soccer directly to softball and now I'm wondering if I messed up with this schedule lol.

[Zaagi'idiwin @BeeAndThree]

I was reading about the effects of chronic dehydration. And now I'm wondering if I'm constantly thirsty to catch up from the lack of water I had as a kid.

Because diabetes also runs through my family and I've consistently been at the doctor's to be tested with negative results.

[Zaagi'idiwin @BeeAndThree]

I struggle hard in an environment where a sense of community is replaced by bureaucracy.

[Zaagi'idiwin @BeeAndThree]

I really admire parents who are willing to volunteer for their kids sports teams.

Because I just don't have the energy after work. I want to sit back and eat snacks.

[Zaagi'idiwin @BeeAndThree]

Life and depression have delayed me from keeping our home as clean as I like it. But today we spent 4 hours cleaning and de-clutterimg.

[Zaagi'idiwin @BeeAndThree]

Waking up to loud music growing up meant the adults were still drinking from the night before.

But for my kids waking up to loud music means it's time to clean this house.

And I'm sure the annoyance is the same 🤣

[Zaagi'idiwin @BeeAndThree]

Today I broke down and cried. I usually do well managing and talking through other people's emotions.

But today. Not today.

It was a hard day.

[Zaagi'idiwin @BeeAndThree]

Nurses can really make or break your care while in the hospital. Thankful for today's nurses 🙏 💓

[Zaagi'idiwin @BeeAndThree]

@drvictoria424 I'll have to check it out. I just finished The Testments.

[Zaagi'idiwin @BeeAndThree]

Any recommendations for popcorn and movie night 🍿 🎬

[Zaagi'idiwin @BeeAndThree]

My shoe is making a squeaky noise.

So now I'm walking around sounding like SpongeBob SquarePants. 🤣

[Zaagi'idiwin @BeeAndThree]

It's my daughter's first year playing softball and she's been out every night even after a long practice too work on her skills.

I can already feel this getting expensive 😩

[Zaagi'idiwin @BeeAndThree]

My heart is heavy. Yet there are so many things that need to be done.

I've been feeling dizzy and sick because in a few days we will bury my youngest sister. 😭