🚫👀 the more you check, the more you stay stuck in the old story.
willpower doesn't work. you need to remove the option to check entirely. ❌
yes, it's uncomfortable. that discomfort is you learning to trust your assumption over the 3D.
here's how to sit in it. ⬇️
Clavicular says men aren't supposed to be happy.
"I have no regard for my own happiness, men aren't supposed to be happy, life is hard, work isn't enjoyable, the gym isn't enjoyable, but it needs to be done, if you want to succeed to the highest level you can't prioritize being happy"
Clavicular is the perfect example of our behavioral paradox of extreme asceticism being made to look like excess and decadence.
Clavicular engages in extreme mortification of the flesh, he literally hits himself with a hammer. He goes on pilgrimages to preach and demonstrate to others the superiority of his particular monastic practices. He made himself infertile and is most likely celibate in reality.
At any other point in history he would be understood to be a monk, an eccentric monk perhaps, but a monk nonetheless. But in today's hyper secular-ascetic society he is thought of as a sort of decadent philanderer living a life of excess. He is not.
He is also the perfect example of the folly of secular-asceticism. All his mortification of the flesh is offered to a worthless and pointless cause, so no spiritual or godly fruit is produced.
The pointless sacrifice or the sacrifice being offered for an unworthy cause is what confuses people because it makes it look like he is not actually a monk. But he absolutely is. Not only is he a monk but a flagellant at that.