I do it for 3 or 4 days and feel pretty good about it then if have one late night and whole thing would go to shit. I'd wake up tired, grab my phone, skip workout, start checking stuff and suddenly it was 8:30 and I was already behind. Then I tell myself I'd start again Monday.
I don’t know how many times over the years I googled ‘What does a PTSD flashback look like?’ I felt like I was dramatic, it couldn’t be that bad right? I’m extremely proud of this piece. I can only hope that it helps someone make sense of their own or others experience.