Tai Marie Bensfield

Roses Are Blood. Violets Are Sorrow, The Time Of Dying Shapes For Tomorrow. My Heart Starts To ache, And My Hands Start To Shake As A Silent Tear Escapes.

[Tai Marie Bensfield @BensfieldTai]

Happy 5th Birthday in Heaven my angel. I wish you were here with me everyday. You will always be my Buggy. #August14th2014

[Tai Marie Bensfield @BensfieldTai]

If everyone cared and nobody cried If everyone loved and nobody lied If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
Then we'd see the day when nobody died And I'm singing
Amen I, Amen I, Amen I, I'm alive Amen I, Amen I, Amen I, I'm alive

[Tai Marie Bensfield @BensfieldTai]

Pretty much my nightly routine. Wish life would get better.

[Tai Marie Bensfield @BensfieldTai]

I miss you Mercer Shawn </3
I don't know where you're going but I'll meet you there
I can't blame you for leaving but it's still not fair
And when I don't know what to sing
I'd sing about you
Now I don't know what to do now that you're not here.

[Tai Marie Bensfield @BensfieldTai]

When life is so fucked up you can't sleep...

[Tai Marie Bensfield @BensfieldTai]

I Am 1 in 4 women and no matter what I will always speak of my handsome little man in heaven, he was 10 months old when he passed away and it hurts more and more every year that hes not here to celebrate his birthday or any holidays. I Love you and I Miss you Mercer Shawn Dean.

[Tai Marie Bensfield @BensfieldTai]

I'm not okay and I honestly don't think I'll ever be 100% okay. Yes I have 2 living beautiful kids but I feel so incomplete without you Mercer, like half of me is dead while the other half lives for your baby brother and sister. #June10th2015 #AlwaysInMyHeart #GoneButNotForgotten

[Tai Marie Bensfield @BensfieldTai]

I miss you more and more every minute of every day Mercer Shawn, you gained your wing way too soon and it's been so hard for me to live without you. You're my first baby boy my angel in heaven and the keeper of my heart. </3, i was 18 when I had you and 19 when I lost you. :(

[Tai Marie Bensfield @BensfieldTai]

I was doing good, i was sober for over a month for the first time since i was 16 almost 8 years and then my husband went to jail and I had a miscarriage and I let it get so bad again. Music helps but at the same time I'm literally alone with no one but myself and my thoughts.

[Tai Marie Bensfield @BensfieldTai]

Shit has happened in my life that I am not proud of and that honestly broke me more than anything else, but at the same time those things made me who i am today. #FuckSIDS #FuckFakeFamily #ImTheBlackSheep.

[Tai Marie Bensfield @BensfieldTai]

@JacobyShaddix I've never been to concert in my life but then again the only band I want to see is Papa Roach. #MichiganSucks #ILiveInTheMiddleOfNowhere.

[Tai Marie Bensfield @BensfieldTai]

@paparoach Pantera.

[Tai Marie Bensfield @BensfieldTai]

I tear my heart open
I sew myself shut
My weakness is
That I care too much
And my scars remind me
That the past is real.