Bianca Falls

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[Bianca Falls @BiancaFalls]

365 Days of Gratitude:

190. Stamina
191. When I feel underwhelmed
192. When I don’t feel like a freak
193. When I can sleep well
194. When I don’t have any pain
195. When I can enjoy the simple things in life
196. When I’m in a relationship with someone I trust

Thank you Jesus

[Bianca Falls @BiancaFalls]

I care about very little. Love pretty much covers it all.

[Bianca Falls @BiancaFalls]

If I can fuck something up by being myself then I don’t want it. Give it to someone else.

[Bianca Falls @BiancaFalls]

If you could have 3 SELFISH wishes, what would they be? They’re not allowed to help anyone but you.

Mine would probably be:
1) having God forever
2) having perfect health until the day I die
3) having the romantic partner I truly want for the next 40 years of my life

[Bianca Falls @BiancaFalls]

Sometimes being emotionally mature scares people away

[Bianca Falls @BiancaFalls]

At least I have one thing in my life that’s consistent. My amazing cats. Having some stability when work and everything else is so unpredictable makes life so much less overwhelming.

[Bianca Falls @BiancaFalls]

People are way too easily manipulated. It’d be nice if being real actually got anyone anywhere but it doesn’t. It gets you absolutely no where. Luckily, idc. My goal is not success. Never has been. The journey is what matters. And I’ll live mine with integrity until the day I die

[Bianca Falls @BiancaFalls]

“Goddamn, I run too fast towards the things that I adore
Everything I'm running for starts running from me like I'm a zombie
I gotta lay back, gotta get static, after Xanax, I'm still wired
And my friends will ask whеn I will relax and I say
When I die…”

[Bianca Falls @BiancaFalls]

Yes I’m a neurodivergent, empathetic, introverted, “overthinker.” Yes I need my partner to be the same. I might not want a guy with money or charm but he has to be cool with me having cats, being a liberal Christian, and kissing me even though I have chronic mono. Dating is hard.

[Bianca Falls @BiancaFalls]

When you’ve always been treated like trash, anything better seems fucked up. When you’ve always been treated well, anything less doesn’t really affect you.

[Bianca Falls @BiancaFalls]

Why is bringing the same energy from the start regardless of the circumstances seen as a bad thing? I’m consistent and you’re not. Sorry not sorry.

[Bianca Falls @BiancaFalls]

There are so many things I want to post but I can’t because you’ll probably read it. Guess I’ll just write it in the journal I got for you while sipping the big matcha tea container I bought for you. That shit will probably last me the rest of the year lol.

[Bianca Falls @BiancaFalls]

Normally I’d say go to therapy but seriously you need more than that. You need divine intervention. Go to God.

[Bianca Falls @BiancaFalls]

Why is every guy I date insanely more emotional than I am?

[Bianca Falls @BiancaFalls]

It could’ve worked out if I was more serious about not missing a week of hanging out. But my kind ass said you should do what you feel like you need to do. I gave him space which led to the end of our situationship. And I’d do it again. I’m not losing my integrity for anyone.

[Bianca Falls @BiancaFalls]

When you’re strong, it doesn’t matter who is around you. Jesus loved sinners and he wasn’t brought down to their level. He only brought them up by being supportive. That’s what true Christianity looks like.

[Bianca Falls @BiancaFalls]

When dude pines after girl who cheated on him and left him feeling traumatized… but leaves the girl who actually wanted to be good to him

[Bianca Falls @BiancaFalls]

Being an untrusting fake ahole is just going to attract untrusting fake aholes. So hopefully that’s the kind of person you want.

[Bianca Falls @BiancaFalls]

I know I’m better than you. You can barely do the bare minimum and I am the perfect girlfriend. But it’s not about who is better. It’s about being a match. Whether we are together or not, you’re my match. That won’t ever change.

[Bianca Falls @BiancaFalls]

When you meet a guy you thought was different but he is exactly the same as everyone else. This world was not made for authentic people. It was made for aholes. Real people will always be the ones who suffer the most. Why does it feel like I’ll never stop crying?