I am often asked what a PhD is really like. It is a mix of independent research & fighting imposter syndrome, but the wins make it worth it. Grateful for the support at DAIM and Hull Uni where bold research is backed. If you have been waiting for a sign to start, this is it. ✨
I read somewhere today that the brain suppresses a lot of memories, especially trauma-induced ones. And I realised that my brain is a mass of highly suppressed memories.
I have pushed so many memories down, to the deepest, darkest, gloomiest parts of my existence, that it has almost affected my ability to write. To feel. To reach.
Now, to write, I have to journey across a thousand seas, past the howling deserts, descend deep into myself, fighting the demons along the way, just to write what I truly want to say. Just to describe how I truly feel.
Today, I succeeded. I reached deep inside to write this piece. But the more I write, the more afraid I become, because I do not know what I will uncover — correction, I do know what I will uncover, but I am not ready to face it just yet. So my brain is at it again, drawing the curtain, sealing the doors, shielding me from myself, the way it always has.
But if I do not face my fears, what then does that make me? How then do I say that I have conquered? That I am no longer a slave to my past? To the version of me that never healed, only hid?
So I will pick up my pen, and I will write, until my fingers bleed, until my skin sheds, until I draw my last breath, until I overcome, and until I finally defeat what once defeated me.
Written by: @keenahkay (KKC)
@Dedication_N I will give anything to have mine back. I guess we appreciate them more when they are dead. May God give you the grace to tolerate and appreciate her more while she’s still here. She sure means no harm with all those complaints.
Just a little taste of Pick Up. 🎶💔
I can’t wait for you to hear the full version on To All The Ones I Loved.
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Special music performance by: KKC 🎸 @OyinkanChekwas at SCREAM HULL on May 18th.
🕙 Time: 10:00 PM - 4:00 AM
📍 Location: The Piper, Newland, Hull, HU5 2NN.
🎟️ Tickets are from £10! Be early & come with govt. ID!!!
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See you there! 🎉🎶
I just published an article on my research using AI and Deep Learning to analyze emotions in music lyrics across cultures.
https://t.co/gT9QzKeiSP
Please give it a read and leave comments. Thank you.