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bts-skz// trying my best in life// cw: 69kg??
gw: 55kg ugw: 50kg; height: 175cm

[S™️ ⁷ @BluePinkVmin]

Wait???? Am I tripping???

[S™️ ⁷ @BluePinkVmin]

I managed to get to 55kg last time. I WILL manage to get to 50kg this time.

[S™️ ⁷ @BluePinkVmin]

The way I’ve seen so many extremely anorexic girls in my new town since I moved and it genuinely made me relapse cause I want to be that so badly …

[S™️ ⁷ @BluePinkVmin]

I moved to another country and now I live by myself so I’m gonna lock in and reach my ugw of 50kg. Starting weight … 69kg i’m such a fatass

[S™️ ⁷ @BluePinkVmin]

I don’t know if I can do recovery. I’m back to my sw and I’m freaking out …. What did I do to myself I’m so fat again

[S™️ ⁷ @BluePinkVmin]

@thvluvacc @jiminie__luv @BE_BTSGALAXY Je suis intéressé !

[S™️ ⁷ @BluePinkVmin]

Fuck this I’m going to recover from my ed tired of feeling like this. I refuse to wake up 10years later and realise I lost years of my precious life to this illness. I recovered from self harming I can recover from this. I will.

[S™️ ⁷ @BluePinkVmin]

The way I’m gonna lock in in 2026 and get to my gw. Honeymoon phase here I come

[S™️ ⁷ @BluePinkVmin]

Low key seeing people around my height at my gw doesn’t make me want to recover cause wdym this could be me but I can’t starve properly …. #edtwt

[S™️ ⁷ @BluePinkVmin]

Probably never going to happen but I with I could become bonespo, I’ll feel legit in my ed if I’m thin enough

[S™️ ⁷ @BluePinkVmin]

Went back to 60kg cause I can’t stop eating since Christmas…. I used to be nearly my gw of 55kg …. I need to lock in again fr fr this time

[S™️ ⁷ @BluePinkVmin]

Do I even need to recover ? I’m eating like a normal person I don’t even lose weight anymore ….

[S™️ ⁷ @BluePinkVmin]

I’m gonna lock in from January onwards, lw I’ll be back for you I promise

[S™️ ⁷ @BluePinkVmin]

Is anyone also trying to lock in again but like can’t ?? I tell myself I’m gonna eat just like before (I always eat the same anyways) but the mental hunger is so strong I cave in all the time 🥲 #edtwt

[S™️ ⁷ @BluePinkVmin]

Ed honeymoon come back I’m fat this is horrible

[S™️ ⁷ @BluePinkVmin]

Sometimes I catch myself saying some ed shit to my friends and omg I feel like a piece of shit cause why do I put that on them ???? I’m a horrible person

[S™️ ⁷ @BluePinkVmin]

Can’t wait for January I’m locking tf in and getting to my gw

[S™️ ⁷ @BluePinkVmin]

When you parents know you have an ed and don’t want to trigger you with a cupcake lol #edtwtㅤ

[S™️ ⁷ @BluePinkVmin]

Tomorrow I’ll be 25 which means I’ve been suffering of my ed for more than 10 years now ….

[S™️ ⁷ @BluePinkVmin]

I’m going to try to not weigh myself until January cause I know I’ve gained and it’s just gonna make me spiral ….

[S™️ ⁷ @BluePinkVmin]

I think I’m not going to weigh myself before January cause all the event happening I’m gonna be fat anyways. January I’ll lock in fr fr