When I'm anxious my mind makes me connect some dots that shouldn't be connected. What's going up on my mind right now makes me feel that showing my broken side is a weakness. Even if its for my closed ones
لم اهتم من قبل بتحري علامات ليلة القدر ولا أي يوم كانت ولا حتى اذا كنت قد صادفتها في قيامي ليس تقليلا من قدسيتها لكن ما الهدف؟ وأنا هدفي بسيط هو النجاة من النار ولقد سمعت حديثا بإن لله كل ليلة من شهر رمضان عتقاء من النار، اذا كل ليلة كانها الليلة لأجل هذا ويا سعدنا لو ننال هذا
Life is an ongoing movie—filled with drama, romance, action, and even horror.
Stop liking reels about movies packed with emotion, and start finding those moments in your own life.
All my life I believed that if I ever tried to do something, I’d be fucking great at it.
But I was so fucking lazy and kept procrastinating all the time.
Today I’m doing something new, So let’s see how it goes.
And i cannot remove that idea from my head since then. I feel like my existence is causing trouble and that trouble is increasing day after day and I cannot accept the fact that all of that is just because of my existence
I wanna quite what I'm doing now because it feels overwhelming and it feels like there is no way out. And quitting isn't the best route to take because if you choose to quite that's a consent from you that you have failed in what you are doing.
You will never achieve anything if you quite once sth bad happens. And however continuing in the way that I'm in right now doesn't seem that it would make me reach something. I've been thinking about suiciding for a while for the very first time