I
am chaos.I am the substance from which your artists and scientists build rhythms.I am the spirit with which
your children and clowns laugh in happy anarchy.
First. Read "In search of the miraculous". You'll have an idea of the multitude of 'I'. Read/Listen stuff like Krisnamurti or Osho. You'll have much better UNDERSTANDING. Now Read Hyatt Undoing yourself. Do the exercises. DOIT. DO IT