Bubbles🐙|| relapse era

Your favorite bulimic wreck // gymbro // ODD // crochet enthusiast // 24 // vent, edtwt & gymtwt // height: 5’5ft // weight: hell of I know

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[Bubbles🐙|| relapse era @Bubbles_100]

purged for the first time in a LONG time and i feel human again

idk how to really explain this but i feel so much better physically emotionally spiritually mentally

i feel like i clicked again

[Bubbles🐙|| relapse era @Bubbles_100]

was bored and unmotivated to walk so some lady is going to pay be 200 dollars to clean her house so guess that’s a nice way to get my steps in

[Bubbles🐙|| relapse era @Bubbles_100]

i truly miss not knowing any better

[Bubbles🐙|| relapse era @Bubbles_100]

i drank 2.5 gallons of water today AND am on the road to reach a 30k step goal by in about an hour and ike how i managed to drink all that

[Bubbles🐙|| relapse era @Bubbles_100]

tried to eat birmally and binged so that’s were we are rn

[Bubbles🐙|| relapse era @Bubbles_100]

old tank on the left
new tank on the right

plants were overgrown
and i wanted to replace the plastic “wood” for real wood to get tannins easier

[Bubbles🐙|| relapse era @Bubbles_100]

recently rescaped my tank and i want to add some floating plants. which one should i get?

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plants

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situationship amd best friend had an intervention and are going to talk to the new friend that’s triggering me and i’m actually terrified for her

[Bubbles🐙|| relapse era @Bubbles_100]

pray for me yall

[Bubbles🐙|| relapse era @Bubbles_100]

well i was talking to another friend (he is normal just a strength athlete) about our macros and the friend that triggered me and she gasped and looked at me like i betrayed her bc i hadn’t told her im tracking my calories

[Bubbles🐙|| relapse era @Bubbles_100]

but now i think j we are really actually going to start competing and im actually nervous bc im in my honeymoon phase still technically

[Bubbles🐙|| relapse era @Bubbles_100]

i’m constipated and i’m considering breaking my almost 4 year long lax streak rn…

[Bubbles🐙|| relapse era @Bubbles_100]

i’ve been canned food maxing insane mode recently

[Bubbles🐙|| relapse era @Bubbles_100]

this plus a slice of toast is my omad today

got full so she’s coming with me throught the day and if i get fried rice syndrome or something then whatever

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@xst8rss i wish but i’m 139 fucking lard ass pounds rn so i’m anything but

[Bubbles🐙|| relapse era @Bubbles_100]

first body check in God knows how long but oh well i suppose

[Bubbles🐙|| relapse era @Bubbles_100]

@foodhtr i started having fear foods again which wasn’t happening anymore. also my body dysmorphia is getting worse by the week. and lastly i’m starting to have some insane thoughts about people trying to make me fat and that was the nail in the coffin bc what the hell am i on about

[Bubbles🐙|| relapse era @Bubbles_100]

she noticed and asked if i was okay and i said yeah but when she pointed out i was shaking i genuinely felt so embarrassed and sad bc why am i back in the fucking building again after everything WHY

[Bubbles🐙|| relapse era @Bubbles_100]

i was trying to be nonchalant or whatever after i told another friend of mine to pay attention to me and make sure i ate least ate with her bc i don’t want to fall too deep just yet

[Bubbles🐙|| relapse era @Bubbles_100]

she gave me some white rice and chicken breast and kept trying to talk or do other shit but she noticed and kept pushing me to eat

tell me why i started shaking at my big age of 24y/o why im shaking to eat chicken breast this is beyond embarrassing