@raynwynights My first relationship when I was 11?ish was with someone who was a fetishist of it (among other things) terrible situation but my family was also very critical of looks/weight growing up, so I think it was inevitable for me.
@crinkle_tin Real I only leave my house for work I don’t think I’ve actually had a friend in years besides one girl I see every few months who doesn’t really like me😭
@annahrexic 3. It has nothing to do with people finding me attractive, or maybe it’s not the only/main thing? I think I want to feel protected and that my pain can’t be ignored anymore.
@annahrexic 1. My mother would constantly make fun of peoples weight in front of me, my dad talked and still does make comments about nutrition and my health “I.e I looked better at 80 lbs” and with my first relationship they were a Ana fetishist (I was 12)
@annahrexic 2. I feel like less judgment around looks and if people treated me better in life. I just wish people could see how tortured I am and understand me.