Having a child really is an undesirable feeling. Like it was really my bones that made his, my body stretched & my blood really gave him nutrients.. it was our hearts, beating together for 9 whole months. My body created every little detail of what i look at today. GOD IS GOOD
The Bible is so clear on how important it is to never look back. Not at an old position, an old ex, an old friendship, or even old ways that God has brought you out of. There are many people in the Bible but in clear words, God tells us to "remember Lot's wife"; who turned into... a pillar of salt! Stuck in time. I pray that when you're tempted to "go back," the spirit of God reminds you that you have too much to look forward to