Nicole 🍎

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[Nicole 🍎 @CHOCOLATE_6840]

This is my (小红书) account: 42967524685. I receive messages and followers, but when I try to send messages, they get rejected or don’t go through.

[Nicole 🍎 @CHOCOLATE_6840]

Add me on Insta, we can communicate there because I’m mostly not active on X. I don’t really check my inbox or replies on posts, so I’m not able to reply there often, but I might be able to reply to you there.
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[Nicole 🍎 @CHOCOLATE_6840]

This is my (小红书) account: 42967524685. I receive messages and followers, but when I try to send messages, they get rejected or don’t go through.

[Nicole 🍎 @CHOCOLATE_6840]

Even if it takes me until I am old to save enough money, no one can stop me from going to China one day.

[Nicole 🍎 @CHOCOLATE_6840]

I am willing to do anything to go to China. Even if I cannot study there, I still want to visit at least once. It is my dream and the place my heart desires the most. I really want to go there, so I am saving money for it.

[Nicole 🍎 @CHOCOLATE_6840]

I really love the Chinese language, and I want to speak it fluently one day. Step by step, I’ll get there!

[Nicole 🍎 @CHOCOLATE_6840]

Honestly, I feel like if I just master the four tones in Chinese. I will be able to speak it much better! Right now, tones are the hardest part for me. I often make mistakes while pronouncing words, and that changes the meaning entirely. In the beginning!

[Nicole 🍎 @CHOCOLATE_6840]

I just need lots of practice and patience. I want to make proper handwritten notes in a notebook, but I don’t know how to start. I'm learning alone, without any teacher. without any video lessons, just me and my notebook. Sometimes it feels overwhelming, but I believe I can do it

[Nicole 🍎 @CHOCOLATE_6840]

I thought Chinese was the most difficult language in the world. I even got scared to try. But when I started learning it on my own, I realized it's not as impossible as I thought. The grammar is actually simple, and the structure is very logical.

[Nicole 🍎 @CHOCOLATE_6840]

I won’t let anyone’s expectations affect my life anymore.

[Nicole 🍎 @CHOCOLATE_6840]

I rarely talk to anyone. I don’t like long conversations and I focus on my own life, Please don’t bother me with unnecessary messages or try to pull me into discussions I don’t care about. I don’t care what people say or think about me!

[Nicole 🍎 @CHOCOLATE_6840]

And I don’t feel the need to explain myself to anyone. My time and calm are more important than meaningless chatter or worrying about others’ opinions. Those who respect me will give me space, and those who don’t can be ignored.

[Nicole 🍎 @CHOCOLATE_6840]

That’s what makes language so beautiful, it’s not just about grammar or vocabulary. but about emotion, culture, and the way people express their hearts. Sometimes, one simple word can hold happiness, sadness, or love, all at once.

[Nicole 🍎 @CHOCOLATE_6840]

It’s fascinating how every country has its own words with specific meanings, yet in my language, a single word can carry many different meanings depending on how people use it. The same word can sound soft in one sentence, deep in another, or even sarcastic in a third.

[Nicole 🍎 @CHOCOLATE_6840]

its atmosphere. and even though I wasn’t born there, one day I’ll definitely visit that beautiful country. 🇫🇷

[Nicole 🍎 @CHOCOLATE_6840]

🇫🇷 Before I was even born, my father once received an offer from his company to go to France. But he turned it down because he didn’t want to leave his homeland and relatives behind. Sometimes I think….if he had accepted that offer.

[Nicole 🍎 @CHOCOLATE_6840]

I might have been born in France! my nationality would’ve been French, while my parents remained Pakistani. 🇵🇰 It’s kind of fascinating to imagine that life could’ve been so different. Still, I really love France. its beauty, its language.

[Nicole 🍎 @CHOCOLATE_6840]

I want to ask my Chinese friends something. In China, do parents force their children to get married? If their children don’t want to, will the parents still pressure them?

[Nicole 🍎 @CHOCOLATE_6840]

What I truly want is just your attention and your care, even if it’s only a gentle word from you. Please don’t push me away. Even a little bit of attention and a small response from you can make me feel that I matter to you.

[Nicole 🍎 @CHOCOLATE_6840]

I’m really feeling so restless and conflicted right now….Should I send you a message or not? I’ve been holding myself back, but no matter what I do. my mind always thinks of you, Whether I’m busy or doing something else.

[Nicole 🍎 @CHOCOLATE_6840]

you always stay in my heart and I can’t get you out of my thoughts, But I’m scared. I’m afraid that if I contact you too much, you’ll think I’m annoying. or even worse….you’ll start to hate me. Just thinking about it makes me feel afraid, I really don’t want to lose you.

[Nicole 🍎 @CHOCOLATE_6840]

In the end, I can only cry quietly in a corner and blame myself for being too weak. Sometimes I wonder, is this really weakness, or is it just a wounded heart that doesn’t know how to fight back?

[Nicole 🍎 @CHOCOLATE_6840]

Sometimes during arguments, I feel especially fragile. There are so many things I want to say in my heart, but I just can’t win against others. Whenever I try to argue back, my heartbeat becomes extremely fast, as if it’s about to burst out of my chest.