i understand that feeling of needing to bottle up your guilt, not burden other people with it. you think you're protecting them from your toxicity, you convince yourself that you're being selfless, but.. it comes out in other ways and it infects everything.
would you guys still like me if i was liiiiike. a worm. orrrr ummm... if i waaaas... aaaaaa spider? ewww... i don't like spiders... maybe i'd be a cute spider though? i dunno...
( mindless rambling. )