i don’t know who needs to hear this, but it’s okay to still be fucking angry that the man who was supposed to love you forever ended up completely deceiving you and nearly destroyed your soul. you’re allowed to be angry forever about this.
My frontal lobe fully developed, and I realized that working a 9 to 5 job five days a week until I am 60 just so I can “enjoy” a few years when I am close to death is the worst idea I have ever seriously considered.
The best decision I ever made was to be quiet. I have nothing to prove. I'm done explaining myself, done convincing anyone of my worth, and done fixing what I didn't break. I refuse to fight for a spot in anyone's life. If you see my value, great. If you don't, that's on you. I'm not forcing anyone to appreciate me, respect me, or treat me right. That's a choice they have to make on their own. Just lessons and a future that no longer includes people who took me for granted
Sincerely, I apologize if I do not reach out anymore. My life is falling apart. I’m sad almost every time, fighting for my life every day, second guessing my career path, tired from a job I don’t like, confused, and sleeping whenever I get free time just to escape reality.
i’m having the most peaceful crashout of my life rn.. like i’m going insane, but also just chilling and vibing. i’m stressed about a bunch of stuff, but at the same time i’m not. i don't know how to explain it..
ngl I feel like everything that happened these last 6 months needed to happen. to allow me to see everybody ain’t for me, learning to set boundaries , learning to stop over sharing and over playing my part.