You should always be touching yourself while you're learning new things! You're just conditioning your brain to get worse :) get dumb and fuzzy and easy to pump whatever thoughts I want into. Wrap a hand around your throat and squeeze and imagine I'm there pinning you down.
Mind you I had people telling me to kill myself and photoshopping themselves killing my pet spiders because I dared to imply that killing spiders that haven't done shit to you is sad lmao