Calendar Collective

DID subsystem of 12, body is an adult | 16+ only, do not use you& for us

[Calendar Collective @CalendarColl]

since this account is pretty dead and we have changed a bunch of things since not using it, we're moving over to @brainisfuzz if anyone wants to know lol

[Calendar Collective @CalendarColl]

anyways i think ive vented enough on here, if anyone still reads these and wanted to talk to us or anything you can more readily contact us through discord: abrAsivv#1212

[Calendar Collective @CalendarColl]

the system as a whole is around 60+ parts, not sure which parts are fragments and which aren't but at least that many different parts have identified themselves as separate. i doubt anyone still reads this or cares, but im still sorry if anyone feels lied to or hurt about/by this

[Calendar Collective @CalendarColl]

kind of half a followup half an update/clarification but just wanted to make this clear since it wasnt before:

this account is mostly made for a subsystem, not a system as a whole. weve mentioned it before but its just one of those things that weve kind of been hiding but yeah.

[Calendar Collective @CalendarColl]

honestly i dont like using twitter but sometimes just having my thoughts out of my head and where someone else just might see them helps, im sorry if i flooded anyone's tl with this stuff but i just needed it out

[Calendar Collective @CalendarColl]

often id talk about things that i hadnt done, most of the time because i didnt want to admit it got cancelled or that i wasnt approved and it just sucks looking back that i can pick apart almost any time and it just boils down to me being impulsive and wanting positive feedback.

[Calendar Collective @CalendarColl]

this whole situation has also made me realize just how horribly fucked up i am, not even in a "i hate myself" way just in a "this is how my trauma has forged me, and im going to do my best to reverse it" way

[Calendar Collective @CalendarColl]

theres been no point in my life that i can remember that i wasnt lying about something, whether it be about myself, my interests or my achievements thered always be something i was fake about. i was even guilty of it decently often with that friend group tbh

[Calendar Collective @CalendarColl]

(and yes, i know making this tweet is kind of going against that but i was already somewhat focused on it anyways, and this is better than emotional self-harm or just lashing out and hurting people more)

[Calendar Collective @CalendarColl]

i feel like im in a really really weird spot right now, and tbh im not 100% sure but i might be better off for it?

(P.S. im sorry if i flood your tl with these rants, ill probably be going on for a bit with this, dont feel pressured to respond or interact, i just need this out)

[Calendar Collective @CalendarColl]

but then also, in reconnecting with irl people and finding new groups its almost been better for me because im not focusing on trying to keep things the same, and just letting go, albeit hard, has been much better for me.

[Calendar Collective @CalendarColl]

just stay out of other people's shit jesus fuck

[Calendar Collective @CalendarColl]

god damn some of yall are so obsessed with how other people exist, seriously just get off twitter for once and realize that irl you would literally know none of this about people, and it wouldnt fucking matter, because guess what! not everyones life is your fucking business