Believe me, I promise. You dont have to stop wanting things. You dont have to stop loving. You dont have to stop yearning. You can stop putting yourself to the side. You can stop ignoring yourself and your needs and your desires.
realizing that you're incompatible with someone (because they don't meet your basic standards of courtesy, respect and reciprocation) and choosing to walk away instead of forcing it/ blaming yourself/ fantasizing about their potential is a superpower. look how much you've grown
Because what if i was insane? What if my patterns led to this demise? And what pride what shame allowed me to keep it right up until it was truly really broken? Hm?
I grew tired of groveling. Of being unseen. A filler episode in your life. Leaving was a way to regain myself. I could not. Be myself. When I was with you. And that is important.
Easy to see a calm beautiful sexy man now. Now that youre away from him. I held u back. I always cried for you. I put myself down for you. I layed myself at your feet but it did not mean u would want me any more.
Why would you want someone who doesnt want you? Who you think used you? Who changed but not for you? Who youre simply not appreciative of? Who hurt you in ways you didnt know you could be hurt? Who allowed you to hurt yourself? Who says it isnt their responsibility to make u hapy
Patterns. Its hard to see way ahead of me. Hard to see past what feeling im in right now. Hard to distinguish what will be good for me. Easy to chase present dopamine
Pro tip: If you're afraid to take the risk, write down in excruciating detail what you're actually afraid of having happen. Step by step what happens next when you fail. You'll often find it's not so bad when you spell it out.
Fear exists in the vague, not the specific.
Lowering standards for clean drinking water, forever chemicals in your food, removing forever chemical reporting requirements, and now asbestos in your lotions.
They hate you and want you dead, making a couple cents on top of it is just bonus.
So. Pattern. Dopamine drops hella at night and in the morning. At night Im feigning and am on my phone for hours trying to catch it. Stay up late wake up tired. Try to find it again. Groggy and foggy all day. Evening swoop up before it drops hella again and cycle starts over
Do NOT fall into the easy “impeachment” trap. No. What must be used is Article 2 section 4 to remove ALL of them from Bondi to Vance up to Trump. I’ve been saying this for weeks.
To be clear:
Section 4
The President, Vice President and all civil Officers of the United States, shall be removed from Office on Impeachment for, and Conviction of, Treason, Bribery, or other high Crimes and Misdemeanors.” And there’s a LIST of those for all of them, starting from the Epstein cover up.