T/W: eating disorders
I used to think guys weren’t attracted to me because I’m so big. I’ve literally sent someone a “Sea World Contact Us” page because I thought joking about it would make it hurt less
I’ve made myself throw up. I’ve went through cycles of not eating or purging. I’ve worked out for 8 hours a day.
I saw a comment today saying I’m getting bigger and it hurt. It’s hard to weigh myself or to lose weight without disordered eating.
In my personal relationships, I have a hard time feeling like my partners like me even when they say they do because of my lack of confidence.
I put this on tonight because I think it’s beautiful and maybe for a brief time I’ll feel beautiful in it.
But what truly makes me feel beautiful is wearing my heart on my sleeve and remind people they don’t need to be fully confident or free of self-doubt to put themselves out there
I want to make two points (1) it costs you nothing to be kind on the internet. Scroll past if you don’t like something and it’s not causing anyone harm, (2) accept yourself as is- even when people criticize you. I’ll be doing the same tonight 💕