The life of a borderline mind.

my daily struggles with bpd / eupd insane exaggerated thoughts.

[The life of a borderline mind. @CeraMarie]

The littlest things send me into a fit of uncontrollable rage, big things I just dread! I was ready to end it all I didn’t feel like there was a way out. I dread things going wrong even though I know that’s life. It’s like Russian roulette with if I can cope enough to carry on.

[The life of a borderline mind. @CeraMarie]

I’m splitting and the demons are yelling at me he’s all bad & There’s no good in him and I’m trying to see the light but it’s completely dark. You don’t love me you never did. Ahh I wish I could turn off my mind

[The life of a borderline mind. @CeraMarie]

You always find a way to make me feel like I’m failing like no matter what I do you manage to knock me down. It’s hurtful knowing that you don’t believe in me… you can keep your money. #bpd

[The life of a borderline mind. @CeraMarie]

Operation day today! Terrified!

[The life of a borderline mind. @CeraMarie]

I’m drowning in my own thoughts this month has really taken it out of me. Yet it’s still not over & more waves are heading my way. Except there not small waves, they’re tsunami waves barrelling towards me stripping every part of me to nothing with each hit. #weather #tsunami #bpd

[The life of a borderline mind. @CeraMarie]

I’ve got so much spinning around inside my head I can’t keep up, I feel dizzy I feel lost and the thought of losing you scares me. My four legged friend, my sanity. If I could take your pain I would as I know you will be my comforter, as I shall be for you. #pets #dogs #pain #bpd

[The life of a borderline mind. @CeraMarie]

Money really is the route of all evil. It changed you. This loving person turns cruel with money. You break my heart and you don’t even know why. I can tell you a thousand times yet you still won’t understand.

[The life of a borderline mind. @CeraMarie]

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[The life of a borderline mind. @CeraMarie]

Maybe I really am loved more then I thought? Or maybe I’m dreaming it, what if it’s true? But what if they hate me really and it’s a game? But they said they loved who you’ve grown to be! But what if they’re lying? That’s probably it. - I’ll avoid them all to be sure. #bpd

[The life of a borderline mind. @CeraMarie]

Today you left me and the family it’s heartbreaking but also doesn’t feel real. Why do I feel so inhuman? I definitely have emotions so why do I feel nothing. I’ll miss you dearly. I love you forever I feel guilt and I feel pain. Im confused

[The life of a borderline mind. @CeraMarie]

How can something so good like you’ve been excited about turn into something I feel so lonely at. :/ one small thing just taking a picture with you and you didn’t want to has sent me spiralling into a deep darkness. It’s exhausting and I wish I just avoided the whole thing. #bpd

[The life of a borderline mind. @CeraMarie]

Every feel like you know someone then all the delusions and disosation starts and you feel like you have flak own idea who they are anymore?

[The life of a borderline mind. @CeraMarie]

Actually been feeling good these last few days…not me feeling paranoid that somethings gonna go wrong but let’s see how long it lasts. 🤞🏻🤞🏻 #bpd #fitness #gettinghealthy #borderlinepersonalitydisorder

[The life of a borderline mind. @CeraMarie]

Vulnerable picture but I’m determined!! Just finished a 20 minute workout and feeling proud of myself!! :)

[The life of a borderline mind. @CeraMarie]

@BossWomen95 @imagevibing I can relate 🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️

[The life of a borderline mind. @CeraMarie]

Why do people never answer the bloody phone….do you know how much it takes for me to work myself up to calling you & you have the audacity not to answer…well that’s it for another good few months. Window closed 🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️💁🏻‍♀️ #mentalhealth #anxiety #phone #borderlinepersonalitydisorder

[The life of a borderline mind. @CeraMarie]

Maybe I’m selfish for feeling this way but I can’t help it. I’m watching this change & I see the effects on your Heath what am I suppose to do? Just stand back & let you die? What about me? You’re all I have I need you. I don’t want to live without you…but maybe you don’t care?

[virgobaby @maybeeevirgo]

im like “i don’t give a f*ck” then have an anxiety attack

[The life of a borderline mind. @CeraMarie]

I feel complete when your here but I also feel lost. I feel like I adapt your habits & your way of life. I copy your style & I don’t even notice until it’s pointed out that I’ve lost myself. I’m a shapeshifter. I’ll never know who I really am. #bpd #MentalHealthMonth #depression