I apologize if I do not reach out anymore. My life is falling apart. I’m sad almost every time, fighting for my life every day, second guessing my career path, tired from a job I don’t like, confused, and sleeping whenever I get free time just to escape reality.
One of the hardest adult lessons is that you still have to show up, no matter what you're carrying. Do it sad. Do it grieving. Do it exhausted. Life doesn't pause to spare you, it keeps moving, so you keep moving too.
Actually, Humans shouldn't always stay at home, even if you have nothing to do. Because staying at home for too long makes the brain become dull and leads to overthinking. You'll have more negative emotions. Psychology calls this state mental rumination. Most of the time, people who stay at home long term are not physically lazy - but mentally exhausted. You increasingly do not want to go out or see people. Even going to the supermarket downstairs to buy a bottle of water feels troublesome. You start to get used to being in a daze alone, scrolling through your phone and staying up late. Then you repeatedly struggle with yourself in an empty room. You think you're resting. But in fact, you're quietly draining the vitality of life. Your brain needs stimulation. Movement. Connection. Without it, your thoughts turn inward and spiral. The longer you isolate, the harder it becomes to break the pattern.
today, i just realized how lonely i am lol.. i don’t talk to nobody, text nobody, nobody checks on me, i don't go over to anybodys house, nobody calls me, i don't call them.. i literally cut the whole world off; what a boring life it is
Anyone else grieving what they thought adulthood would look like and how things actually played out ? Sometimes I feel like i've played by the "rules" and it still got me no where .