Nowadays I basically have 1 RL friend and a handful living on the other side of the globe. It was lonely for a while, but I'm used to it now. Better than feeling the disappointment after realizing they don't care nearly as much as you do again. I sort of stopped caring.
Did something similar at 13-14, realized most friends didn't really care much. Around the same time we got good internet, so I just played WoW and watched a LOT of anime. Made some good friends online, even met some IRL, but nothing last forever. I just stopped reaching out.
@Dgvr_ I don't use csp, but I'm pretty sure it's similar to photoshop where there are brush settings to set how much you want the patern on your brush to repeat/spacing, scattering, size and angle jittering etc.. It's not super intuitive, but once you get it, it can save a lot of time !
@Sevie1505 I like separating everything, that way I can precisely tweak anything I want! (I tend to fuse them, when I'm happy with how it looks though)