Vandine

i'm crazy, depressed, and autistic.

[Vandine @CiconiaCry]

i'm so sad and moody. Will things get better? It's been a month and i dunno if we progressed at all.

[Vandine @CiconiaCry]

you think... i have a chance? Will you give me that chance? If i confess and you reject me... My world would have ended on the spot like it did 7 years ago.

[Vandine @CiconiaCry]

i am right here... but you don't even see me.

[Vandine @CiconiaCry]

someday... will i be reflected in your eyes?

[Vandine @CiconiaCry]

I'm trying to fix myself. I'm trying to change. I'm trying to make things better for those people around me. Everyone has said that to me and now i'm doing just that. I'm trying to change for you. This is for the better right?

[Vandine @CiconiaCry]

I was dumb because my mind was excited to welcome someone new in my life again but my expectations should have been low to begin with. Now my attachment issues caused me to have all this dilemma this past few days.

[Vandine @CiconiaCry]

I haven't been sleeping lately also, i always listen to music until 4am but it never seems to be enough to ease the pain and the sadness i feel deep inside me.

[Vandine @CiconiaCry]

Truth is, i haven't been eating and i haven't been drinking water as well. I always go by the day empty and i just let my sadness eat me up for the day. My mood is shifting constantly, i'm having a hard time distracting myself from things.

[Vandine @CiconiaCry]

I'm so mentally unstable. Everything makes me angry, everything makes me sad, my confidence is at it's lowest. The slightest mistake makes me emotionally angry. The games i play doesn't make me happy. Is there nothing that can make me happy at all?

[Vandine @CiconiaCry]

I wish i met you earlier. Your voice, your face, the way you carry yourself and the way you laughed when we talk to each other. I wish we can still do that a lot more. I want to know more about you and i want you to know about me more. Let's talk again sometime.

[Vandine @CiconiaCry]

Blud, never let your self be down for others. Don't fool yourself.

[Vandine @CiconiaCry]

@CmeOnItsRanzy cool

[Vandine @CiconiaCry]

@shirosuzu Hot

[Vandine @CiconiaCry]

My dream is to be good in japanese.

[Vandine @CiconiaCry]

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