They wanted to put me on the school news until they realized I can’t talk in front of people.
They thought I would go on reality tv bc they liked my personality. But I am glad everything happened how it has. But I know I am awesome- I just got to be more confident externally.
It was hard to not address my patterns bc fixating and daydreaming lowkey feels good. I think I just got busy and life started feeling less hard so I subconsciously stopped caring so much. I am where I am supposed to be. I want this life path even with its flaws.
Woah I just reread my own twitter diary and yeah I am doing better.
I got diagnosed with OCD but I rebuked it so we are all good now
And I still have sleep probs..nevertheless I persist.
I don’t fixate nearly as bad anymore.
And my energy is not always good. Its because I am just really anxious all the time and I never sleep well nor have I ever. But I think I am not a narcissist bc I worry too much about being inconsiderate of literally anything. I think I am just messed up rn. Chemically.
But yeah he is still my tv crush idk why I am like this. Prob bc i grew up in a house where men big women small type shit. Internalizing. And I have hated every man I have ever been with except the one I am gonna marry. I don’t want to be w out him, his energy is weird but good.
Including me. And why have I always liked blonde boys? I blame draco malfoy and cody simpson…and also John Smith from Pocahontas. I don’t wanna explain further.