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[hernaez @Cigsofheaven]

Nothing really fills the void. I’ve already tried a lot of things, side quests, sh, drinking, smoking, be friends w someone, focusing on myself and a lot moreeee AND IT STILL LEADS ME TO SAME FUCKING DEPRESSIVE STATE I’VE FELT FOR YEARS. I HATE IT SO MUCH.

[hernaez @Cigsofheaven]

I sit with everything, even when it hurts. That’s what makes adulthood so hard. You’re scared, you’re exhausted, and you don’t always know what you’re doing, but you still have to show up and keep going.

[hernaez @Cigsofheaven]

Man I just wanna die at this point

[hernaez @Cigsofheaven]

Simply existing makes me feel i’m a miserable useless loser

[hernaez @Cigsofheaven]

Let’s smoke🚬

[hernaez @Cigsofheaven]

I don't think love was ever meant for me. I can't shake the feeling that there's something wrong with me, I feel like I'm too flawed to be loved the way I want to be.

[hernaez @Cigsofheaven]

I fucking hate being vulnerable w people. After so many of them made me feel like I was a burden, I'm terrified of letting myself be that open again. Every time I start to get close to someone, I get scared that I'm becoming too much, I js pull away before i feel that way again.

[hernaez @Cigsofheaven]

getting older feels so scary

[hernaez @Cigsofheaven]

If you had only chosen to stay with me, I would have spent my life with you.

[hernaez @Cigsofheaven]

I wish I could go back to the times where I felt really happy

[hernaez @Cigsofheaven]

why the hell my brain keeps replaying awkward moments happened years ago on a random day

[sao @bedr8que]

people will make you feel so unwanted and wonder why you distance yourself

[hernaez @Cigsofheaven]

life feels weird

[hernaez @Cigsofheaven]

I feel completely alone

[(vulnerable) 𝓋iki ꜝꜝ @kittybpd]

who up grieving the life they couldve had if they were normal

[hernaez @Cigsofheaven]

Watching everyone live their life progressively while mine’s still fucked up

[hernaez @Cigsofheaven]

fuck my anxiety

[vivi @mooncatvivi]

everyday feels like a constant loop of trying to distract & overstimulate myself so i don’t have the time or energy to be alone with my thoughts & so i don’t kill myself

[JigarMaBadiAagHai @jigar_042]

i think the saddest part about growing up is realizing nobody is coming to save you. The version of you that’s exhausted, scared, and overwhelmed still has to wake up and keep going tomorrow.

[ai @suffering109]

ive come to terms that ill never be loved the way i love